pencil tool.
whoa
Tuesday, December 31, 2002
Much as the wacom is disgustingly nifty, it's deeply depressing to realize that I have no talent whatsoever. I rather wish I could get Painter Classic to work on Lulu, or at least work in such a way that it doesn't turn my screen horrible shades of purple and chartreuse. Not that it would make much difference, given that I suck.
I should not be browsing art sites when trying to draw. I think I'll go curl up in a ball in the corner now and lament. *lament! lament!*
I should not be browsing art sites when trying to draw. I think I'll go curl up in a ball in the corner now and lament. *lament! lament!*
Damn my lack of caffeine tolerance! Damn the Vanilla Coke that is now gone! Damn!
Damning aside, I am now the proud and happy owner of Star Ocean 2 and Final Fantasy Saga Frontier 2. Nope, never played the first one of either. I was hoping to find a copy of some form of Suikoden, but that's not likely to happen, ever. *sigh* Unfortunate, really- it seems like a fascinating series. Still. I now have Star Ocean, and I have wasted ridiculous amounts of time on it. (This is mostly the brother's fault, mind you. If he had just stayed away from that damn town for three more minutes, I wouldn't have had to start over from the beginning.) My main reason for playing the game was Ashton, of course. I mean, the guy gets possessed by a slapstick duo of dragons, and spends the rest of the game a) bemoaning his fate, b) kicking ass, c) acting cute and vaguely girly, and d) obsessing over barrels. That's it. That's enough. I'm done.
The translation is only about half a shade of awful- doesn't compare to Tactics or even parts of the English version of FFIV. Occasionally the dialogue feels a little too literal, or the characters will mix up their pronouns, or contractions will be few and far between...but it's comprehensible, and at times highly amusing. Doesn't compare to Lunar's localization, though, which is disappointing.The beginning is a little slow and stilted (especially Claude's scenario- my god, was that an hour of pure dialogue?) but it picks up after a little while. The battle system is fairly fun, once you master it (targeting is a minor bitch, and switching between characters can be annoying, but it isn't often necessary, so it balances) and the item creation thing- I think I've blown at least five hours total doing nothing but cook. How many games let you cook things, and make jewelry, and other fun and silly things like that? It's ridiculous.
I do love it dearly, though, even if I'm annoyed that I have to choose between characters...I don't get Opera or Ernest with Ashton, and I can't get Bowman if I get Precis- not that I want Precis, mind you, but Bowman is useless in battle, no matter how cool he may be outside of battle. Though I don't know that cool is the right word to describe Bowman...*snorkle* Yes, I sense many, many hours of my life sacrificed to this game. Many hours indeed.
Damning aside, I am now the proud and happy owner of Star Ocean 2 and Final Fantasy Saga Frontier 2. Nope, never played the first one of either. I was hoping to find a copy of some form of Suikoden, but that's not likely to happen, ever. *sigh* Unfortunate, really- it seems like a fascinating series. Still. I now have Star Ocean, and I have wasted ridiculous amounts of time on it. (This is mostly the brother's fault, mind you. If he had just stayed away from that damn town for three more minutes, I wouldn't have had to start over from the beginning.) My main reason for playing the game was Ashton, of course. I mean, the guy gets possessed by a slapstick duo of dragons, and spends the rest of the game a) bemoaning his fate, b) kicking ass, c) acting cute and vaguely girly, and d) obsessing over barrels. That's it. That's enough. I'm done.
The translation is only about half a shade of awful- doesn't compare to Tactics or even parts of the English version of FFIV. Occasionally the dialogue feels a little too literal, or the characters will mix up their pronouns, or contractions will be few and far between...but it's comprehensible, and at times highly amusing. Doesn't compare to Lunar's localization, though, which is disappointing.The beginning is a little slow and stilted (especially Claude's scenario- my god, was that an hour of pure dialogue?) but it picks up after a little while. The battle system is fairly fun, once you master it (targeting is a minor bitch, and switching between characters can be annoying, but it isn't often necessary, so it balances) and the item creation thing- I think I've blown at least five hours total doing nothing but cook. How many games let you cook things, and make jewelry, and other fun and silly things like that? It's ridiculous.
I do love it dearly, though, even if I'm annoyed that I have to choose between characters...I don't get Opera or Ernest with Ashton, and I can't get Bowman if I get Precis- not that I want Precis, mind you, but Bowman is useless in battle, no matter how cool he may be outside of battle. Though I don't know that cool is the right word to describe Bowman...*snorkle* Yes, I sense many, many hours of my life sacrificed to this game. Many hours indeed.
"The gate is about half a day's flight away..."
"Would that be as the crow flies or as the dragon flies?"
*choking*
"The dragon has a brain hemmorage, falls over and dies, and crushes you all."
*d'oi* *three minutes later, after everyone has stopped choking...*
"Or maybe an unladen swallow..."
*sound of repeated beatings*
"...nevermind..."
D&D shennanigans, brought to you by ridiculously high levels and far too many dragons. (And trees. Can't forget the trees. Oh, the trees. Run in terror from the trees.)
Here's a question: How long does it take a friendship of countless years to dissolve completely? Answer: I'll get back to you on that one when they're no longer on speaking terms.
It's painful to watch, though. Very painful. I wonder if they even realize it's happening...
"I, myself, only know of perhaps 350 planes, and I am but a prince..."
"So, got a map?"
"...*he looks thoughtful for a moment* I do not have a map that would be a flat, paper thing..."
"Got a sphere?"
"*The dragon looks at you and starts casting a spell. It seems to be a silence spell.*"
"*Now you've done it. You've gone and gotten us killed, haven't you? Who taught the fighter Draconic?*"
"Yeah? Well it's not my fault the cleric is confused as to what his class is! He thinks he's a fighter, damnit!"
"Wait, what's a spell like ability?"
"I sneeze, only it's a horn of blasting."
"Damn man, what god did you piss off?"
"Would that be as the crow flies or as the dragon flies?"
*choking*
"The dragon has a brain hemmorage, falls over and dies, and crushes you all."
*d'oi* *three minutes later, after everyone has stopped choking...*
"Or maybe an unladen swallow..."
*sound of repeated beatings*
"...nevermind..."
D&D shennanigans, brought to you by ridiculously high levels and far too many dragons. (And trees. Can't forget the trees. Oh, the trees. Run in terror from the trees.)
Here's a question: How long does it take a friendship of countless years to dissolve completely? Answer: I'll get back to you on that one when they're no longer on speaking terms.
It's painful to watch, though. Very painful. I wonder if they even realize it's happening...
"I, myself, only know of perhaps 350 planes, and I am but a prince..."
"So, got a map?"
"...*he looks thoughtful for a moment* I do not have a map that would be a flat, paper thing..."
"Got a sphere?"
"*The dragon looks at you and starts casting a spell. It seems to be a silence spell.*"
"*Now you've done it. You've gone and gotten us killed, haven't you? Who taught the fighter Draconic?*"
"Yeah? Well it's not my fault the cleric is confused as to what his class is! He thinks he's a fighter, damnit!"
"Wait, what's a spell like ability?"
"I sneeze, only it's a horn of blasting."
"Damn man, what god did you piss off?"
Friday, December 27, 2002
Thursday, December 26, 2002
Blaauugh. For my first serious wacom attempt, Urban's picture isn't bad, I guess...but his mouth bugs the hell out of me. I rather like the way his eyes and shirt came out, even if his shoulders are a little bit too narrow. Urban's a sweet kid, really (not much of a kid, but still a little naive despite his feigned cynicism) and he's good with the children, for all that he pretends to dislike them.
Scenery sucks, but I can no longer in good faith leave blank space behind my floating heads anymore. *sigh*
...I should go to sleep and stop being a moron, shouldn't I? D'oi!
Scenery sucks, but I can no longer in good faith leave blank space behind my floating heads anymore. *sigh*
...I should go to sleep and stop being a moron, shouldn't I? D'oi!
The young man moved swiftly but unhurriedly through the rows of beds- his step was purposeful, but unalarmed. It was simply the natural length of his stride that brought him so quickly to the screaming child. He was no older than seventeen, and the child in question no older than nine- both were probably much younger, though no one still alive knew for sure.
Hands scarred and callused from paper cuts and acid spills shook the boy awake. "Shh! Quiet, 'Neki. You'll wake the others." There was no point in keeping his voice low in the wake of 'Neki's screaming. Pairs of bright, sleepy eyes were already blinking open around them; he gave the nearest one a reassuring pat on the head and turned back to the shaking little boy.
"Aaaahhh!" Urban choked as several stones of terrified Hannamen child wrapped itself around his neck.
"Shhh." He gently stroked the fuscia and green spikes of Solneki's hair, noting that the normally perky antennae were drooping. The child took a huge gasping breath, and was quiet. "It was just a dream, 'Neki. Look around- it was just a dream." He helped 'Neki out of bed and held his hand. "Back to sleep, the lot of you. I'll come back in a few minutes, and if I see any eyes still open I'll tell Brother Vectal you were up past curfew." What few shining eyes had opened immediately snapped shut with tiny gasps of horror. Urban nodded to himself and led Solneki out of the bedroom. The monastery corridors were dimly lit with warm golden lamps; when they reached the library, Urban lifted the scrawny child on top of his desk and sat down in his chair.
Solneki watched him with wide, green eyes; the normally dark green markings on his face were pale and barely visible in the weak library light. "It wasn't just a dream, Urban."
"I know. Tell me." He was used to Solneki's dreams; the boy had been having them for years, but no one else had ever bothered to listen to him when he woke up screaming. Usually he would scream himself raw and fall back to sleep from sheer exhaustion. Urban told himself he only helped Solneki because he could get back to work sooner if he put the boy to bed. It was impossible to get anything done while the child screamed. But- and he tried not to admit it to himself most of the time- even if he did normally sleep at night, Urban still would've gotten up to listen to Solneki's nightmares. He often had to remind himself that he didn't like children to stop himself from considering Solneki to be his friend.
Solneki's legs dangled off the side of the desk- he knew better than to kick. If so much as a scratch appeared on the ancient and already somewhat battered desk, it would be replicated in the Hannamen's rather thin hide. "It was the black space again. Empty. It screamed and tried to swallow me."
"You've had that one before," Urban noted. "Anything different?"
"There was someone else there. He reminded me of you, a little, but I couldn't see his face. The black space tried to take him, too. I..."
"You...?" Urban prompted.
"I didn't want it to take him. He was important, and if I lost him, horrible things would happen. To me, to you- to everything."
"I was there?"
"No. But horrible things would have happened to you anyway. I could hear it singing- 'one down and the world to go' and it was laughing when it reached for me." There was a haunted look in those liquid green eyes. He slid off the desk and crawled into Urban's lap, burying his face in the folds of the librarian's robe. Urban supressed a sigh and began stroking the soft bright hair once again.
"Lap rat," he muttered, trying to sound irritated.
"Dusty book monster," Solneki returned, his voice muffled by dark orange cloth.
Urban snorted. "Plant-thing."
"Librarian."
This time his snort sounded more like a chukle. "Bug eyed little brat."
Solneki's only answer was a faint snore. Urban rolled his eyes and carried the sleeping boy back to the dormitory.
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Aw, cute. This is Urban. Complete with library behind him. (Yes, those are books. Don't ask about the other stuff- I think the librarian doubles as apothecary or chemist or whatever- moonshiner, maybe.) My grandma thinks its a picture of a girl- I haven't the heart to tell her otherwise.
As for Solneki- sometimes he's an inscrutable blond who always wears sunglasses and a black three piece suit with the stupidest tie ever- it's got those stupid yellow smilies all over it and its the only colorful article of clothing he wears. (Even his underwear is black (boxers or briefs? Only Mordant knows- and then, only because of some rather odd circumstances involving a small dog, an incriminating casette tape, and a very large bottle of SoCo. Solneki still holds that it was all Mordant's fault.) but then again, that could just be a rumor.) When Solneki isn't some mysterious man with a stupid tie and lots of money, he's a Hannamen- some sort of plant/bug/human hybrid creature. He's the last of his kind, and a rather brilliant scientist, and absolutely nucking futs for the most part. Mordant doesn't know what to do with him half the time, even though he's supposed to be protecting him. (Mordant is more or less the same in both cases- grouchy, foul mouthed, and always getting dragged into Solneki's schemes. I think he's more of a subordinate in Solneki-with-a-tie's story, whereas Solneki-Hannamen is a little like some sort of random lost puppy he has to deal with.)
This one is, obviously, Solneki Hannamen, as a child, growing up in an orphanage run by a bunch of monks. Urban sort of appeared when I started thinking about making a character named D'mitri. (Anastasia was on TV last night. I still haven't seen it all the way through, but..."And then I kick her!") Dun know why someone named Urban would appear when I'm thinking about D'mitri, but hey, I've never presumed to understand how these things work. Urban amuses me, at any rate. Librarian.
Hands scarred and callused from paper cuts and acid spills shook the boy awake. "Shh! Quiet, 'Neki. You'll wake the others." There was no point in keeping his voice low in the wake of 'Neki's screaming. Pairs of bright, sleepy eyes were already blinking open around them; he gave the nearest one a reassuring pat on the head and turned back to the shaking little boy.
"Aaaahhh!" Urban choked as several stones of terrified Hannamen child wrapped itself around his neck.
"Shhh." He gently stroked the fuscia and green spikes of Solneki's hair, noting that the normally perky antennae were drooping. The child took a huge gasping breath, and was quiet. "It was just a dream, 'Neki. Look around- it was just a dream." He helped 'Neki out of bed and held his hand. "Back to sleep, the lot of you. I'll come back in a few minutes, and if I see any eyes still open I'll tell Brother Vectal you were up past curfew." What few shining eyes had opened immediately snapped shut with tiny gasps of horror. Urban nodded to himself and led Solneki out of the bedroom. The monastery corridors were dimly lit with warm golden lamps; when they reached the library, Urban lifted the scrawny child on top of his desk and sat down in his chair.
Solneki watched him with wide, green eyes; the normally dark green markings on his face were pale and barely visible in the weak library light. "It wasn't just a dream, Urban."
"I know. Tell me." He was used to Solneki's dreams; the boy had been having them for years, but no one else had ever bothered to listen to him when he woke up screaming. Usually he would scream himself raw and fall back to sleep from sheer exhaustion. Urban told himself he only helped Solneki because he could get back to work sooner if he put the boy to bed. It was impossible to get anything done while the child screamed. But- and he tried not to admit it to himself most of the time- even if he did normally sleep at night, Urban still would've gotten up to listen to Solneki's nightmares. He often had to remind himself that he didn't like children to stop himself from considering Solneki to be his friend.
Solneki's legs dangled off the side of the desk- he knew better than to kick. If so much as a scratch appeared on the ancient and already somewhat battered desk, it would be replicated in the Hannamen's rather thin hide. "It was the black space again. Empty. It screamed and tried to swallow me."
"You've had that one before," Urban noted. "Anything different?"
"There was someone else there. He reminded me of you, a little, but I couldn't see his face. The black space tried to take him, too. I..."
"You...?" Urban prompted.
"I didn't want it to take him. He was important, and if I lost him, horrible things would happen. To me, to you- to everything."
"I was there?"
"No. But horrible things would have happened to you anyway. I could hear it singing- 'one down and the world to go' and it was laughing when it reached for me." There was a haunted look in those liquid green eyes. He slid off the desk and crawled into Urban's lap, burying his face in the folds of the librarian's robe. Urban supressed a sigh and began stroking the soft bright hair once again.
"Lap rat," he muttered, trying to sound irritated.
"Dusty book monster," Solneki returned, his voice muffled by dark orange cloth.
Urban snorted. "Plant-thing."
"Librarian."
This time his snort sounded more like a chukle. "Bug eyed little brat."
Solneki's only answer was a faint snore. Urban rolled his eyes and carried the sleeping boy back to the dormitory.
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Aw, cute. This is Urban. Complete with library behind him. (Yes, those are books. Don't ask about the other stuff- I think the librarian doubles as apothecary or chemist or whatever- moonshiner, maybe.) My grandma thinks its a picture of a girl- I haven't the heart to tell her otherwise.
As for Solneki- sometimes he's an inscrutable blond who always wears sunglasses and a black three piece suit with the stupidest tie ever- it's got those stupid yellow smilies all over it and its the only colorful article of clothing he wears. (Even his underwear is black (boxers or briefs? Only Mordant knows- and then, only because of some rather odd circumstances involving a small dog, an incriminating casette tape, and a very large bottle of SoCo. Solneki still holds that it was all Mordant's fault.) but then again, that could just be a rumor.) When Solneki isn't some mysterious man with a stupid tie and lots of money, he's a Hannamen- some sort of plant/bug/human hybrid creature. He's the last of his kind, and a rather brilliant scientist, and absolutely nucking futs for the most part. Mordant doesn't know what to do with him half the time, even though he's supposed to be protecting him. (Mordant is more or less the same in both cases- grouchy, foul mouthed, and always getting dragged into Solneki's schemes. I think he's more of a subordinate in Solneki-with-a-tie's story, whereas Solneki-Hannamen is a little like some sort of random lost puppy he has to deal with.)
This one is, obviously, Solneki Hannamen, as a child, growing up in an orphanage run by a bunch of monks. Urban sort of appeared when I started thinking about making a character named D'mitri. (Anastasia was on TV last night. I still haven't seen it all the way through, but..."And then I kick her!") Dun know why someone named Urban would appear when I'm thinking about D'mitri, but hey, I've never presumed to understand how these things work. Urban amuses me, at any rate. Librarian.
Forgot to mention the movies I saw yesterday- "Mallrats", which was disgusting and hilarious and altogether far more amusing than it should have been, and "Dead Again" starring and directed by...Kenneth Brannaugh.
It was one of dad's netflicks DVDs, and he usually gets some weird shit from netflicks, which is why I headed towards Lulu when he pulled out the DVD. As soon as he mentioned that it had Kenneth Brannaugh in it, I came running back. It's from the late 80's or early 90's, back when he was really cute. Harry Potter just didn't do him justice- you've got to watch Hamlet or some of his other earlier movies to understand why I'm so obsessed with him.
"Dead Again" had him not only ten years ago when he was gorgeous (he still is, mind, he's just gotten a bit older- looked somewhat like Ewan McGregor back then, actually...only a rather better actor and that's saying a lot since Ewan is pretty good at what he does. Anyway.) but it had him with an alternating German and American accent (he sounds utterly obnoxious as an American- it was delightful) and with a goatee at times, short spiky hair at others, and a silly foofy haircut for the most part. It was great. The movie was something of a murder mystery- with all sorts of lovely things like hypnosis and reincarnation and...scissors thrown in. Oh, the scissors. *horror* The scissors!
*'hem* Twas good. 'Twas very good, and brilliantly directed. Y'know how a movie is supposed to have you on the edge of your seat gasping for air because you're just that engrossed in it? Oh yeah. Any and all scenes involving scissors managed that brilliantly. Watch the movie and you'll understand. "You know I would never hurt you, Margaret." *shudder*
Robin Williams was in it, as an ex-shrink working at a convenience store. And Emma Thompson was in it as...uh...well, that would be spoiling it, wouldn't it? Andy Garcia, also, as a newspaper reporter. A very cynical newspaper reporter. Oh, so cynical.
But, oh, it was good. Everything a gal could want- reincarnation and Robin Williams and black and white film and Andy Garcia and ancient jewelry and gender-bending and Kenneth Brannaugh and much hypnosis and, of course, scissors.
Such a good movie.
"Karmic credit: buy now, pay forever."
It was one of dad's netflicks DVDs, and he usually gets some weird shit from netflicks, which is why I headed towards Lulu when he pulled out the DVD. As soon as he mentioned that it had Kenneth Brannaugh in it, I came running back. It's from the late 80's or early 90's, back when he was really cute. Harry Potter just didn't do him justice- you've got to watch Hamlet or some of his other earlier movies to understand why I'm so obsessed with him.
"Dead Again" had him not only ten years ago when he was gorgeous (he still is, mind, he's just gotten a bit older- looked somewhat like Ewan McGregor back then, actually...only a rather better actor and that's saying a lot since Ewan is pretty good at what he does. Anyway.) but it had him with an alternating German and American accent (he sounds utterly obnoxious as an American- it was delightful) and with a goatee at times, short spiky hair at others, and a silly foofy haircut for the most part. It was great. The movie was something of a murder mystery- with all sorts of lovely things like hypnosis and reincarnation and...scissors thrown in. Oh, the scissors. *horror* The scissors!
*'hem* Twas good. 'Twas very good, and brilliantly directed. Y'know how a movie is supposed to have you on the edge of your seat gasping for air because you're just that engrossed in it? Oh yeah. Any and all scenes involving scissors managed that brilliantly. Watch the movie and you'll understand. "You know I would never hurt you, Margaret." *shudder*
Robin Williams was in it, as an ex-shrink working at a convenience store. And Emma Thompson was in it as...uh...well, that would be spoiling it, wouldn't it? Andy Garcia, also, as a newspaper reporter. A very cynical newspaper reporter. Oh, so cynical.
But, oh, it was good. Everything a gal could want- reincarnation and Robin Williams and black and white film and Andy Garcia and ancient jewelry and gender-bending and Kenneth Brannaugh and much hypnosis and, of course, scissors.
Such a good movie.
"Karmic credit: buy now, pay forever."
So, Happy Boxing Day to all you Canadians and wannabe Canadians out there...*wink*
And, hopefully all you Christmas celebrators out there got a nice haul- I've got a wacom tablet now, a small one, which is perfect, and it's a pretty red color and looks all spiff and shiny on the desk (In my excitement, I shoveled all the crap on the desk under the desk, and now the desk is almost clean...) which makes me endlessly happy. Made the Christmas and whatever card with it. I also finally did a sketchy "Highwayman" type of thing- my printer is incapable of printing things with any amount of detail, which makes me sad...I suppose I could always comandeer a printer at work and have it look all professional and shiz- It's amazing what you can do with a bare minimal knowledge of anatomy and a wacom tablet.
I also got many books, including Salt: A World History. That's what I get for reminding dad that I used to steal encyclopedias and read them late at night. I was ten or something. I didn't know any better. (Once, in sixth grade, I was accused of reading the encyclopedia for fun. Sensing that they were only teasing, I wisely kept silent. Now the guilty secret is out, oh no! *snorkle*)
(Side note. Vocabulary lesson: splee- verb- to spew glee. It's not as painful as it sounds. snorkle- noun/verb- a cross between a snort and a chuckle. More fun to write than either.)
I would have gotten a long sword, but there was a problem with shipping. So, no gift from the brother. The other brother got me a copy of "Heathers" ("a must see for the professional cynic"- wtf?) and a set of juggling balls. *D'oi* Also, everyone and their uncle gave me blank notebooks. No, for serious. And I'm not talking about five star whatnots- I think all my relatives raided the jounal/notebook section of Borders and paid by the pound- or ream. So. Many. Notebooks. *_*
I think they're trying to tell me something...*grin* Kevin received a Darth Vader lego set, and was up until three on Christmas morning (our presents are opened at half past midnight, you see- odd tradition, but we're impatient people and everyone is awake then, anyway). Naturally, by the next day I'd decided that the Jedi Sith Lord wasn't nearly festive enough- the red lightsaber was a good start, but not enough. So the Dark Sith Lord received a nicely festive red hat and cape, and some tinsel to brighten his helmet. Kev was not amused, but Darth Santa sat on the mantel until after dinner.
It was good. That's all. It was good.
And, hopefully all you Christmas celebrators out there got a nice haul- I've got a wacom tablet now, a small one, which is perfect, and it's a pretty red color and looks all spiff and shiny on the desk (In my excitement, I shoveled all the crap on the desk under the desk, and now the desk is almost clean...) which makes me endlessly happy. Made the Christmas and whatever card with it. I also finally did a sketchy "Highwayman" type of thing- my printer is incapable of printing things with any amount of detail, which makes me sad...I suppose I could always comandeer a printer at work and have it look all professional and shiz- It's amazing what you can do with a bare minimal knowledge of anatomy and a wacom tablet.
I also got many books, including Salt: A World History. That's what I get for reminding dad that I used to steal encyclopedias and read them late at night. I was ten or something. I didn't know any better. (Once, in sixth grade, I was accused of reading the encyclopedia for fun. Sensing that they were only teasing, I wisely kept silent. Now the guilty secret is out, oh no! *snorkle*)
(Side note. Vocabulary lesson: splee- verb- to spew glee. It's not as painful as it sounds. snorkle- noun/verb- a cross between a snort and a chuckle. More fun to write than either.)
I would have gotten a long sword, but there was a problem with shipping. So, no gift from the brother. The other brother got me a copy of "Heathers" ("a must see for the professional cynic"- wtf?) and a set of juggling balls. *D'oi* Also, everyone and their uncle gave me blank notebooks. No, for serious. And I'm not talking about five star whatnots- I think all my relatives raided the jounal/notebook section of Borders and paid by the pound- or ream. So. Many. Notebooks. *_*
I think they're trying to tell me something...*grin* Kevin received a Darth Vader lego set, and was up until three on Christmas morning (our presents are opened at half past midnight, you see- odd tradition, but we're impatient people and everyone is awake then, anyway). Naturally, by the next day I'd decided that the Jedi Sith Lord wasn't nearly festive enough- the red lightsaber was a good start, but not enough. So the Dark Sith Lord received a nicely festive red hat and cape, and some tinsel to brighten his helmet. Kev was not amused, but Darth Santa sat on the mantel until after dinner.
It was good. That's all. It was good.
Wednesday, December 25, 2002
Sunday, December 22, 2002
Am trying to find ways to avoid (pronouns) sleep right now. Could go and read...dun feel like it though. Shall blog random things, instead.
...*cricketchirp*
Have not finished Christ's Mass shopping yet. Went to church today, decided that the new priest is highly irritating. Decided also that celebrating Yule would be greatly preferrable to celebrating Christ's Mass. Sadly, Yule is now. Have missed celebration. Drat. Hopefully the sun will come up tomorrow (as opposed to a large ball of flaming gas illuminating the planet). Ought to stop reading Pratchett, but likelyhood of that is slim to none and none just kicked slim's ass.
Am feeling horribly uncreative and blocked. More likely to stare at a screen and drool than anything else. *frustrated* Want very badly to draw, to write, to create, to boldly split infinitives where none have been split before- but can not manage any of those things. *sad* Am almost reduced to making cheesy Christ's Mass cards out of cardstock and red construction paper. Have already made two- best to not make any more, lest it become a habit.
Am somewhat angry at certain people, namely those having to do with MUN. Am, actually, very angry at said people. Would like to drop out of ILMUNC, but there is much conflict, and said conflict is only adding to creative blockage. The fact that am sitting third chair in region band may also have something to do with said blockage. Parents have much to do with creative blockage as well. Will not explain when not using personal pronouns, though. School newspaper is creative blockage personified. *kicks Beacon* Fact that Suzycat is old and decrepit and dying is...depressing, which can't be helping creative blockage. Am thinking she has cancer of some sort. Happens to cats sometimes. Suckage.
...*sigh*
...*cricketchirp*
Have not finished Christ's Mass shopping yet. Went to church today, decided that the new priest is highly irritating. Decided also that celebrating Yule would be greatly preferrable to celebrating Christ's Mass. Sadly, Yule is now. Have missed celebration. Drat. Hopefully the sun will come up tomorrow (as opposed to a large ball of flaming gas illuminating the planet). Ought to stop reading Pratchett, but likelyhood of that is slim to none and none just kicked slim's ass.
Am feeling horribly uncreative and blocked. More likely to stare at a screen and drool than anything else. *frustrated* Want very badly to draw, to write, to create, to boldly split infinitives where none have been split before- but can not manage any of those things. *sad* Am almost reduced to making cheesy Christ's Mass cards out of cardstock and red construction paper. Have already made two- best to not make any more, lest it become a habit.
Am somewhat angry at certain people, namely those having to do with MUN. Am, actually, very angry at said people. Would like to drop out of ILMUNC, but there is much conflict, and said conflict is only adding to creative blockage. The fact that am sitting third chair in region band may also have something to do with said blockage. Parents have much to do with creative blockage as well. Will not explain when not using personal pronouns, though. School newspaper is creative blockage personified. *kicks Beacon* Fact that Suzycat is old and decrepit and dying is...depressing, which can't be helping creative blockage. Am thinking she has cancer of some sort. Happens to cats sometimes. Suckage.
...*sigh*
Have just finished reading Hogfather. Susan is growing on me. I didn't much like her in Soul Music, but I much prefer her as the poker weilding "inner babysitter".
And Death? Stop being so godsforsaken cute. 'Tisn't natural, it ain't. Same thing for Hex. FTB, indeed. *snort* Ridcully-ous. (Of all the wizards, I rather like Dean and the Bursar best. And the Librarian, of course, but that goes without saying.) My favorite Discworld character would be a tossup between Vimes and Death, I think...with Death of Rats, Susan, and Luggage coming in as runners up.
I now have two more Discworld books to read- Guards, Guards! and Small Gods. My Pratchett library is growing, slowly...soon, I shall take over the world! *coughcough* Whups, did I say that? I meant, soon, I shall have lots and lots of good things to read. *coughcough* Got a tickle in me throat or somesuch...
And Death? Stop being so godsforsaken cute. 'Tisn't natural, it ain't. Same thing for Hex. FTB, indeed. *snort* Ridcully-ous. (Of all the wizards, I rather like Dean and the Bursar best. And the Librarian, of course, but that goes without saying.) My favorite Discworld character would be a tossup between Vimes and Death, I think...with Death of Rats, Susan, and Luggage coming in as runners up.
I now have two more Discworld books to read- Guards, Guards! and Small Gods. My Pratchett library is growing, slowly...soon, I shall take over the world! *coughcough* Whups, did I say that? I meant, soon, I shall have lots and lots of good things to read. *coughcough* Got a tickle in me throat or somesuch...
To all people who saw LoTR, and especially all the ones to whom I said "You suck. Hard."-
I apologize, though not profusely, and really only to gloat, because I have now seen it twice.
So there.
(Thoughts: Screw Aragorn (figuratively), I'll take Eomyr and Haldir- the prickly bitch elf. Gotta love the prickly bitch elf. He needs some lovin'. (Haldir, by the way, nearly made me cry- but he very much so made me squeal with joy when he showed up at Helm's Deep. Go Elves!)* Frodo, or Elija Wood, whomever comes first, needs to stop whining and must confess his undying love to Sam, as is right and proper. Even KE finally picked up on the subtext- but it really isn't subtext when they're smashing you over the head with it. "It's your Sam!" "Who's yo' Sam?" *cacklcackle* Ye gods, it was worse than the first movie- thankfully, no godsawful Titanic-esque flutes in the background- such cheesy treacle! And treacle really shouldn't be cheesy, that's just disgusting, really- but I guess it depends on the kind of cheese. Legolas- I'm smelling some subtext 'tween him and Aragorn that wasn't really there in the first one. (Except at the Elves' secret council thing in James' apartment complex. Because James is Elrond, and is keeping Gandalf in his closet. (Because Elrond is really a Chinese guy from Canada with an extensive library of anime. And he has Gandalf in his closet. (And because it's really a sort of "You've got to know him to understand" sort of thing, only not- it's really more of a "You've got to see the Wall of Bokken's and the rice cooker to understand" sort of thing, instead.)) I think I've been reading too much Terry Pratchett lately.) I mean, the whole thing with Arwen's necklace, and "You're late" and the glances! The deep, meaningful glances! They need to stop it with the deep, meaningful glances. Legolas had cooler fight sequences in the first movie. The first movie, however, did not have Ents. And Ents, as we all know, rock. With rocks. Did they ever rock with rocks. Part of the reason (aside from the headcounting at Helm's Deep and Grima Wormtongue and the Palantiri) The Two Towers was always my favorite of the trilogy was the Ents. They cut out some of the most amusing parts with the Ents! *sob* And there was no Gandalf monologue on the Battle of Moria. (Dun see why Gandalf couldn't just march on up to Mordor, bang on the gates and go "Yo, Sauron, open up, bitch! This be my turf now, yo!" and end it all. You know he could.) And there was no digging through the ruins of Isenguard and finding pipeweed, or Palantiri. *sob* Unless that happened in the third book, but I swear I wouldn't remember it then, having only read that one once. The Two Towers has been read countless times, and I liked the book better. The Ents sang in the book. And there was Quickbeam, in the book. THEY CUT OUT QUICKBEAM!!! *triplesob, with a sniffle* Eh, well. 'Twas still pretty coo', both times I saw it. Eowyn really didn't kick enough ass, and Viggo Mortensen's wooden acting bugged me. Gollum...creeeepy. *shudder* Not at all what I imagined Gollum to be like. (Just as Orlando Bloom doesn't quite do it for me as Legolas- as Orlando Bloom, of course, he's quite lovely- but as Legolas, he isn't entirely up to snuff. Jonathan Rhys-Davies is the absolute spiff Gimli, mind. And wotsisname is an equally spiff Sam- same with Merry and Pippin (can't tell em apart, mind) and Gandalf. But that's Ian McKellan for you. Wonderful at everything (he started off Shakespearian. What more do you want?). Viggo and Orlando and Elijah just don't quite cut it. Or rather, Elijah would, if he weren't so...ngaaahhrrrgghh. There's no other way to describe it other than: ngaaahhrrrgghh. The elves are otherwise superbly cast (Haldir!) as are the Riders of Rohan.) Lemme see, what else, what else...all of the dialogue between Legolas and Gimli at Helm's Deep that got cut out makes me very sad. The fact that I haven't read the book since seventh grade, yet still remember Leggy's promise to show Gimli Mirkwood and Fangorn forests, and Gimli's explanation about the Helm's Deep caves means that I really, really liked that part. I've got to read them again, I can't remember enough. Tis very sad that I can't remember enough. I have decided, though, that instead of Canada, I shall move to New Zealand. Yessss, my preciousss...New Zealandsss it isss...)
*Hearing Aragorn shout "Fire Arrows!" in Elvish gave me an inspirational thwapping. (Some people get bunnies, or fluff balls- I get smacks upside the head.) Something about a race of Elves whose name for themselves means "arrow" or "archer" or some similar suchlike. None of this peaceful, wise, ancient race crap. These guys are mean and angry and have a penchant for wiping out small countries. They're wise and ancient, of course- but there are many kinds of wisdom, and sometimes all the peaceful, Zen thinking in the world isn't anywhere near as useful as the concept of "Friendly fire isn't." Lady Galadriel would fall down in a faint if she ran into their Lady of the Wood. *hmwahaha*
*sigh* I really, really like Haldir. Prickly little ice queen. *sniffle* *sigh*
I apologize, though not profusely, and really only to gloat, because I have now seen it twice.
So there.
(Thoughts: Screw Aragorn (figuratively), I'll take Eomyr and Haldir- the prickly bitch elf. Gotta love the prickly bitch elf. He needs some lovin'. (Haldir, by the way, nearly made me cry- but he very much so made me squeal with joy when he showed up at Helm's Deep. Go Elves!)* Frodo, or Elija Wood, whomever comes first, needs to stop whining and must confess his undying love to Sam, as is right and proper. Even KE finally picked up on the subtext- but it really isn't subtext when they're smashing you over the head with it. "It's your Sam!" "Who's yo' Sam?" *cacklcackle* Ye gods, it was worse than the first movie- thankfully, no godsawful Titanic-esque flutes in the background- such cheesy treacle! And treacle really shouldn't be cheesy, that's just disgusting, really- but I guess it depends on the kind of cheese. Legolas- I'm smelling some subtext 'tween him and Aragorn that wasn't really there in the first one. (Except at the Elves' secret council thing in James' apartment complex. Because James is Elrond, and is keeping Gandalf in his closet. (Because Elrond is really a Chinese guy from Canada with an extensive library of anime. And he has Gandalf in his closet. (And because it's really a sort of "You've got to know him to understand" sort of thing, only not- it's really more of a "You've got to see the Wall of Bokken's and the rice cooker to understand" sort of thing, instead.)) I think I've been reading too much Terry Pratchett lately.) I mean, the whole thing with Arwen's necklace, and "You're late" and the glances! The deep, meaningful glances! They need to stop it with the deep, meaningful glances. Legolas had cooler fight sequences in the first movie. The first movie, however, did not have Ents. And Ents, as we all know, rock. With rocks. Did they ever rock with rocks. Part of the reason (aside from the headcounting at Helm's Deep and Grima Wormtongue and the Palantiri) The Two Towers was always my favorite of the trilogy was the Ents. They cut out some of the most amusing parts with the Ents! *sob* And there was no Gandalf monologue on the Battle of Moria. (Dun see why Gandalf couldn't just march on up to Mordor, bang on the gates and go "Yo, Sauron, open up, bitch! This be my turf now, yo!" and end it all. You know he could.) And there was no digging through the ruins of Isenguard and finding pipeweed, or Palantiri. *sob* Unless that happened in the third book, but I swear I wouldn't remember it then, having only read that one once. The Two Towers has been read countless times, and I liked the book better. The Ents sang in the book. And there was Quickbeam, in the book. THEY CUT OUT QUICKBEAM!!! *triplesob, with a sniffle* Eh, well. 'Twas still pretty coo', both times I saw it. Eowyn really didn't kick enough ass, and Viggo Mortensen's wooden acting bugged me. Gollum...creeeepy. *shudder* Not at all what I imagined Gollum to be like. (Just as Orlando Bloom doesn't quite do it for me as Legolas- as Orlando Bloom, of course, he's quite lovely- but as Legolas, he isn't entirely up to snuff. Jonathan Rhys-Davies is the absolute spiff Gimli, mind. And wotsisname is an equally spiff Sam- same with Merry and Pippin (can't tell em apart, mind) and Gandalf. But that's Ian McKellan for you. Wonderful at everything (he started off Shakespearian. What more do you want?). Viggo and Orlando and Elijah just don't quite cut it. Or rather, Elijah would, if he weren't so...ngaaahhrrrgghh. There's no other way to describe it other than: ngaaahhrrrgghh. The elves are otherwise superbly cast (Haldir!) as are the Riders of Rohan.) Lemme see, what else, what else...all of the dialogue between Legolas and Gimli at Helm's Deep that got cut out makes me very sad. The fact that I haven't read the book since seventh grade, yet still remember Leggy's promise to show Gimli Mirkwood and Fangorn forests, and Gimli's explanation about the Helm's Deep caves means that I really, really liked that part. I've got to read them again, I can't remember enough. Tis very sad that I can't remember enough. I have decided, though, that instead of Canada, I shall move to New Zealand. Yessss, my preciousss...New Zealandsss it isss...)
*Hearing Aragorn shout "Fire Arrows!" in Elvish gave me an inspirational thwapping. (Some people get bunnies, or fluff balls- I get smacks upside the head.) Something about a race of Elves whose name for themselves means "arrow" or "archer" or some similar suchlike. None of this peaceful, wise, ancient race crap. These guys are mean and angry and have a penchant for wiping out small countries. They're wise and ancient, of course- but there are many kinds of wisdom, and sometimes all the peaceful, Zen thinking in the world isn't anywhere near as useful as the concept of "Friendly fire isn't." Lady Galadriel would fall down in a faint if she ran into their Lady of the Wood. *hmwahaha*
*sigh* I really, really like Haldir. Prickly little ice queen. *sniffle* *sigh*
The reason Boffo would do so well as a Gap commercial is because they're all blonde and vaguely Swedish looking, except for the ones with lavender hair or tendencies towards turning into large scavenger birds. And, y'know, the ones with claws and nasty ichor dripping from random appendages.
Eventually, 'twill be updated. No promises are made, though. (I'd love to have it done by the end of January, mind- maybe the Christmas Spirit of Lazy Writers Past will come to me one night and smack me with a chain or something. ...on second thought, that's overly kinky. Guess I'll just have to find the motivation and time on my own. *oi*)
Eventually, 'twill be updated. No promises are made, though. (I'd love to have it done by the end of January, mind- maybe the Christmas Spirit of Lazy Writers Past will come to me one night and smack me with a chain or something. ...on second thought, that's overly kinky. Guess I'll just have to find the motivation and time on my own. *oi*)
Thursday, December 19, 2002
I am a little Russian grandmother in training. When I am as wide as I am short, and have adopted several grandchildren, you will understand. Until then, just take my word for it. *cracks spine* Whew, but it's a relief to have that out of the way.
On an unrelated note, I will destroy the guidance department. There will be destruction. And explosives. *grr* (You see, I've resigned myself to not getting in to college. It's just not happening, though it will be through no fault of my own.)
On an unrelated note, I will destroy the guidance department. There will be destruction. And explosives. *grr* (You see, I've resigned myself to not getting in to college. It's just not happening, though it will be through no fault of my own.)
i do not have 2 hours to chill cookie dough. bitch. i have, at best, half an hour. i do not want to stay up until two in the morning because of this.
worse comes to worse, i use the fake cookie recipe. don't wanna do that, tho. not sure how it'll work.
....oingoboingo! have found child proof cookie recipe. Bwahaha! No chill!
....doubleplusgood! I have reasserted my mad cookie skilz by busting out a batch of the most bogus sugar cookies ever! awesome, man! No, really, see, all hte other cookies I've made this week were only so-so. These're kickass, and I don't even much like sugar cookies. *sigh* I am almost content.
But I am tired...and now I must figure out who's getting what. *yawn* Wanna go sleepasleep now...
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worse comes to worse, i use the fake cookie recipe. don't wanna do that, tho. not sure how it'll work.
....oingoboingo! have found child proof cookie recipe. Bwahaha! No chill!
....doubleplusgood! I have reasserted my mad cookie skilz by busting out a batch of the most bogus sugar cookies ever! awesome, man! No, really, see, all hte other cookies I've made this week were only so-so. These're kickass, and I don't even much like sugar cookies. *sigh* I am almost content.
But I am tired...and now I must figure out who's getting what. *yawn* Wanna go sleepasleep now...
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Wednesday, December 18, 2002
For all people who have already seen LOTR: You suck. Hard.
And with that though, she decided it might be time to turn off the computer and go to bed. Whether or not she did remains to be seen...(It was eventually decided, though, that the likelihood of sleep in the near future was about as likely as that of her ceasing to speak about herself in third person.)
And with that though, she decided it might be time to turn off the computer and go to bed. Whether or not she did remains to be seen...(It was eventually decided, though, that the likelihood of sleep in the near future was about as likely as that of her ceasing to speak about herself in third person.)
What's your FFT job class?
Yes, so, it's kinda late, and I just finished the oatmeal/craisin cookies, so now it's just the sugar cookies left, and, well, we all know what happens when I start to get tired, especially after a frustrating mun meeting that started off good but ended badly, and I just deleted an entry on porn because, no, really, I'M ON CRACK.
I always did like Time Mages. The hats! They're cute! And the robes! They're purple! And the girls had nifty bangs. The guys looked kinda dorky, but hey, that's their problem.
I think my theme song is Don't Bother None. The lyrics are probably somewhere in the archives, but...damn are they ever appropriate in places.
Readin' my paper in Ray's cafe
The ol' guy next to me is loud as day
Rambled and rambled while eatin' his pie
He dropped his wallet, now it's mine uh huh
Sorry old man but that's jus' the way that it is
Don't bother none
Won't help at all to worry 'bout it
Picked up the wallet and slipped out side
Walked around and walked around and walked around town
I found my nerve and a good place to hide
Only to find no cash inside uh-huh
Oh well I guess that's just the way that it is
Don't bother none
Won't help at all to worry 'bout it
I got thirsty so I went to a bar
Met a lil darlin' with the face of a star
In the mornin' woke up to find
She stole my car along with my heart uh-huh
Oh well I guess that's jus' the way that it is
Don't bother none
Won't help at all to worry 'bout it
Wish she'd give me back my heart uh-huh
Oh, well I guess that's jus' the way that it is
Don't bother none
Won't help at all to worry 'bout it
My philosophy, you see, is very simple.
When bad things happen, stop thinking. it all goes away eventually, so why bother?
Readin' my paper in Ray's cafe
The ol' guy next to me is loud as day
Rambled and rambled while eatin' his pie
He dropped his wallet, now it's mine uh huh
Sorry old man but that's jus' the way that it is
Don't bother none
Won't help at all to worry 'bout it
Picked up the wallet and slipped out side
Walked around and walked around and walked around town
I found my nerve and a good place to hide
Only to find no cash inside uh-huh
Oh well I guess that's just the way that it is
Don't bother none
Won't help at all to worry 'bout it
I got thirsty so I went to a bar
Met a lil darlin' with the face of a star
In the mornin' woke up to find
She stole my car along with my heart uh-huh
Oh well I guess that's jus' the way that it is
Don't bother none
Won't help at all to worry 'bout it
Wish she'd give me back my heart uh-huh
Oh, well I guess that's jus' the way that it is
Don't bother none
Won't help at all to worry 'bout it
My philosophy, you see, is very simple.
When bad things happen, stop thinking. it all goes away eventually, so why bother?
college is making me sick. nauseous and ickly sick.
fuck it. i'm not getting in to bryn; you might ask how i know this and then chalk it up to me selling myself short; i would disagree, because there's a very logical reason for this. i am not getting in to bryn because i took standard history last year, and am taking no history this year.
at our admissions workshop, the application that we looked at that was rejected was rejected solely because the girl did not take a science class her senior year. that's a no-no for a liberal arts college.
at my interview, maureen specifically asked about my lack of a history class.
so, no dice. not getting in. don't want to go to college. it makes me sick. won't get into haverford, for the same reason. won't get into holyoke, either. nor wesleyan. (*now* i'm just being pessimistic. being honest about the sick part, though.)
Jen got into Swarthmore. Becky got into Bryn Mawr. Selena and Hallie got into Carleton. Emily got into Columbia. Sharri got into Cornell. Mike, Jamie, and Ronnie all got deferred from Georgetown. (I am sad, but not particularly surprised.)
I have cookies to bake, now. no one is getting any actual presents from me until after the holiday, you see. i have no money, having spent it all on pottery.
i still feel sick.
fuck it. i'm not getting in to bryn; you might ask how i know this and then chalk it up to me selling myself short; i would disagree, because there's a very logical reason for this. i am not getting in to bryn because i took standard history last year, and am taking no history this year.
at our admissions workshop, the application that we looked at that was rejected was rejected solely because the girl did not take a science class her senior year. that's a no-no for a liberal arts college.
at my interview, maureen specifically asked about my lack of a history class.
so, no dice. not getting in. don't want to go to college. it makes me sick. won't get into haverford, for the same reason. won't get into holyoke, either. nor wesleyan. (*now* i'm just being pessimistic. being honest about the sick part, though.)
Jen got into Swarthmore. Becky got into Bryn Mawr. Selena and Hallie got into Carleton. Emily got into Columbia. Sharri got into Cornell. Mike, Jamie, and Ronnie all got deferred from Georgetown. (I am sad, but not particularly surprised.)
I have cookies to bake, now. no one is getting any actual presents from me until after the holiday, you see. i have no money, having spent it all on pottery.
i still feel sick.
Monday, December 16, 2002
I really wanna write a dancer fic...mostly because my dancer skin keeps getting pulled on "Wishful Thinking". Final Fantasy Tactics is definitely one of the best inspirations for random names and even more random ficthwaps.
Due to the wonderfulness of the game, I think I've found a new webcomic to stalk. There are archers in drag. Beware. And a knight who looks like a badass cross between Vash and...uh...*blinkblink* Yeah. It is, in fact, ridiculously, hilariously slashy. Molotov Cocktail.
A working knowledge of the game would be in order to understand why it's so damn funny, but hey- if you don't know the game, you should. Because it's nifty. And because Ramza is just so darned cute in his paltry attempts to save the world. And because when they say evil, they mean evil. As in "Wow, they're really evil, look at that one stab his best friend, his girlfriend, his wife, and his countrymen in the back. And look at those ones try to kill your sister over and over again- oh, now they're just trying to revive the devil and take over the world. Evil." And because- well, it's just a really good game, awful translation notwithstanding. (By awful, we mean godawfulwhattheforkdidhejustsay?!) I'd have the same inclinations towards ficcing it that I do with VII, if it weren't for the ending...
Actually, you don't really need any knowledge of the game to find it amusing. Game knowsits just makes it even more amusing. ...licking batteries, indeed...
Due to the wonderfulness of the game, I think I've found a new webcomic to stalk. There are archers in drag. Beware. And a knight who looks like a badass cross between Vash and...uh...*blinkblink* Yeah. It is, in fact, ridiculously, hilariously slashy. Molotov Cocktail.
A working knowledge of the game would be in order to understand why it's so damn funny, but hey- if you don't know the game, you should. Because it's nifty. And because Ramza is just so darned cute in his paltry attempts to save the world. And because when they say evil, they mean evil. As in "Wow, they're really evil, look at that one stab his best friend, his girlfriend, his wife, and his countrymen in the back. And look at those ones try to kill your sister over and over again- oh, now they're just trying to revive the devil and take over the world. Evil." And because- well, it's just a really good game, awful translation notwithstanding. (By awful, we mean godawfulwhattheforkdidhejustsay?!) I'd have the same inclinations towards ficcing it that I do with VII, if it weren't for the ending...
Actually, you don't really need any knowledge of the game to find it amusing. Game knowsits just makes it even more amusing. ...licking batteries, indeed...
ow. my head hurts. think i'll go...sleep, for a while.
My ff7 muse has been running rampant inside my skull lately. I'm talkin' screaming and breaking chairs over everyone's head and biting thigs kind of rampant, mind you. My muses, they are not a peaceful lot. *glares at Paige*
But I've got the Turks in one corner getting drunk, while Lex and Vincent make a moody reunion, and Cid is playing with fire- and dragons. Rochelle just became Roselle, and some chicka named Sabatieni just appeared. Think she might be Vinny's brat. No clue. Love her name, though. I've come up with way too many original charas for this fandom, I really have.
'Tieni may be appearing elsewhere, though, just because I've decided I like her. Von's first girlfriend, maybe. ...or Ari'i's. Hm. (Yes, I *do* intend to write Song of Shadows! Just...not now.)
Oh, and, uh...in case y'all haven't noticed, veradicere is on hiatus indefinitely. So...the ending to boffo shan't be seeing the light of day for quite a while. A thousand apologies to everyone- I'm no happier about this than you are, I assure you.
I can give you a teaser, though!
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Tyler blinked, and took in the black ribbed turtleneck and khakis. "When did you have time to raid Bannana Republic?"
Jance looked sour and flicked one end of his striped scarf over his shoulder. He did not deign to reply.
Opal giggled. "You look like one of those singing Gap comercials!" She started singing, earning a delighted smile from her mother. "People all over the world-"
"Shut. Up," Jance finished the chorus for her.
"That's not how it goes!" Opal was giggling helplessly now, and if there was a slight note of hysteria to her laughter, no one had the heart to call her on it.
Tyler sniggered quietly. "Come on, everybody. Let's go inside..." He began to hum the chorus of the song. Opal and Radueriel joined in between giggles.
Jance sighed the sigh of the long suffering and pushed open the door.
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No, really, that actually happens. I'm serious. Jance is too easy to poke fun at, and it's too easy to picture him in khakis with one of those silly scarves.
"People all over the world, join hands..."
My ff7 muse has been running rampant inside my skull lately. I'm talkin' screaming and breaking chairs over everyone's head and biting thigs kind of rampant, mind you. My muses, they are not a peaceful lot. *glares at Paige*
But I've got the Turks in one corner getting drunk, while Lex and Vincent make a moody reunion, and Cid is playing with fire- and dragons. Rochelle just became Roselle, and some chicka named Sabatieni just appeared. Think she might be Vinny's brat. No clue. Love her name, though. I've come up with way too many original charas for this fandom, I really have.
'Tieni may be appearing elsewhere, though, just because I've decided I like her. Von's first girlfriend, maybe. ...or Ari'i's. Hm. (Yes, I *do* intend to write Song of Shadows! Just...not now.)
Oh, and, uh...in case y'all haven't noticed, veradicere is on hiatus indefinitely. So...the ending to boffo shan't be seeing the light of day for quite a while. A thousand apologies to everyone- I'm no happier about this than you are, I assure you.
I can give you a teaser, though!
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Tyler blinked, and took in the black ribbed turtleneck and khakis. "When did you have time to raid Bannana Republic?"
Jance looked sour and flicked one end of his striped scarf over his shoulder. He did not deign to reply.
Opal giggled. "You look like one of those singing Gap comercials!" She started singing, earning a delighted smile from her mother. "People all over the world-"
"Shut. Up," Jance finished the chorus for her.
"That's not how it goes!" Opal was giggling helplessly now, and if there was a slight note of hysteria to her laughter, no one had the heart to call her on it.
Tyler sniggered quietly. "Come on, everybody. Let's go inside..." He began to hum the chorus of the song. Opal and Radueriel joined in between giggles.
Jance sighed the sigh of the long suffering and pushed open the door.
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No, really, that actually happens. I'm serious. Jance is too easy to poke fun at, and it's too easy to picture him in khakis with one of those silly scarves.
"People all over the world, join hands..."
"Everybody do a spot and listen check."
"Fifteen."
"Thirteen."
"Whatever it is, I heard it- 27."
"...um...I hear crickets!"
"There are no crickets."
"Exactly."
"Thank you, Oh Mistress of the Obvious."
"Oh, anytime, Dogfish."
"What is that, the smallest die on the face of the planet?"
"No, this is."
"...*d'oi*"
"Listen check!"
"...more crickets."
"While she's listening to the noises echoing inside her empty skull, I hear whatever is coming down the hallway."
"Okay, you can do a search check."
"26. Whatever it is, i found it."
"18."
"...I found crickets!"
"But...oh, never mind."
"Suddenly the flaming green skull's eye sockets burst into purple flame-"
"Eew, that clashes!"
*silence*
"Thank you, Oh Clerical Fashion Consultant."
"Any time, Dogfish."
"Fifteen."
"Thirteen."
"Whatever it is, I heard it- 27."
"...um...I hear crickets!"
"There are no crickets."
"Exactly."
"Thank you, Oh Mistress of the Obvious."
"Oh, anytime, Dogfish."
"What is that, the smallest die on the face of the planet?"
"No, this is."
"...*d'oi*"
"Listen check!"
"...more crickets."
"While she's listening to the noises echoing inside her empty skull, I hear whatever is coming down the hallway."
"Okay, you can do a search check."
"26. Whatever it is, i found it."
"18."
"...I found crickets!"
"But...oh, never mind."
"Suddenly the flaming green skull's eye sockets burst into purple flame-"
"Eew, that clashes!"
*silence*
"Thank you, Oh Clerical Fashion Consultant."
"Any time, Dogfish."
Wednesday, December 11, 2002
Fork. It's almost Christmas and I have not even begun my shopping.
I'm too tired to find any solace in napping, now- I just wake up looking bruised and abused and craving more restful oblivion.
The brother comes home for the express purpose of getting drunk with a few friends on Friday. Raise your hand if you're surprised. *sits on hands*
Regions auditions are Saturday. Someone shoot me so I have a valid excuse not to go.
Saturday night will involve gaming. "But I'll be clueless and whiny and largely useless!" "So you'll be a cleric, then?" "Yup." Huzzah.
Sunday, the applications will be finished or I will hurt myself.
If the Christmas Shoes song plays once more in my presence, I will hunt down the person responisible and eviscerate him. This sort of treacle should be illegal.
...I think that's it for the whinefest, for the moment. Why the hell do colleges make it so difficult to find their forkin' address on their websites? Why? Do they not want to receive mail and applications and such? Is it a test to see if we're dedicated enough to hunt it down? Is it a secret? *frustrated, tired* Meh. Sleeping now.
I'm too tired to find any solace in napping, now- I just wake up looking bruised and abused and craving more restful oblivion.
The brother comes home for the express purpose of getting drunk with a few friends on Friday. Raise your hand if you're surprised. *sits on hands*
Regions auditions are Saturday. Someone shoot me so I have a valid excuse not to go.
Saturday night will involve gaming. "But I'll be clueless and whiny and largely useless!" "So you'll be a cleric, then?" "Yup." Huzzah.
Sunday, the applications will be finished or I will hurt myself.
If the Christmas Shoes song plays once more in my presence, I will hunt down the person responisible and eviscerate him. This sort of treacle should be illegal.
...I think that's it for the whinefest, for the moment. Why the hell do colleges make it so difficult to find their forkin' address on their websites? Why? Do they not want to receive mail and applications and such? Is it a test to see if we're dedicated enough to hunt it down? Is it a secret? *frustrated, tired* Meh. Sleeping now.
How on earth did it get to be December 11 all of a sudden? I don't believe it. *sniff* It's still really October, right? Right?
...*crickets chirp*
G'ah. Leave me be- I am comfortable in denial. It's much warmer than de Raritan, and...yes, I should be beaten severely for making that joke.
(I really ought to resist the urge to talk about music, but I can't help it...) I want to hate Avril Lavigne for singing "S8ter Boi" and "Complicated", but "I'm with you" almost makes up for it. Damn! I hate it when this happens. It's just a very nice, winter melancholy song, and part of me loves it 'cuz it's purdy, while part of me hates it 'cuz it's Avril Lavigne. A dillema...
...*crickets chirp*
G'ah. Leave me be- I am comfortable in denial. It's much warmer than de Raritan, and...yes, I should be beaten severely for making that joke.
(I really ought to resist the urge to talk about music, but I can't help it...) I want to hate Avril Lavigne for singing "S8ter Boi" and "Complicated", but "I'm with you" almost makes up for it. Damn! I hate it when this happens. It's just a very nice, winter melancholy song, and part of me loves it 'cuz it's purdy, while part of me hates it 'cuz it's Avril Lavigne. A dillema...
Tuesday, December 10, 2002
Oh- saw Brotherhood of the Wolf over the weekend. Had wanted to see it in theatres, now wish I had even more. That opening fight scene with the gypsies and the locals in the rain? Kickass.
Of course, after the Beast showed up, it all went rather campily downhill fairly swiftly. However, Mani, Fronsac and the googly eyed Marquis and the twisted, evil, (yet strangely alluring) rat bastard, wotsisname were all excellent characters. Even the girl was tolerable. Best parts of the movie? The fact that they spoke in French, of course. And the fight in the rain. When Fronsac went native of the thieves was pretty damn cool, too. The scene in the chapel, the scene in the brothel with the fortuneteller (I want her fan. No, really.) and the crazy dreams, the scene after the scene in the chapel. Not the fight in the chapel- or at least, not the duel. The rest of the fight was pretty good.
Gotta love a pointless and slightly silly occult action flik. It took itself just a little too seriously, though...except for the bit with the trout. :)
Also saw Treasure Planet. GO SEE TREASURE PLANET. NOW, MINIONS, NOW! Damn Disney and their evil, wonderful animation ways. Even the rather random Johnny Rzeznik musical interlude didn't detract from the overall movie (don't get me wrong, I like some of the GooGoo Dolls stuff- don't love it, but I like it. That song just didn't fit, though. It irritated me.) The horrible sacharine opening was a bit over the top, but otherwise it was great. And aside from the Rzeznik interlude, the rest of the soundtrack was all energetic and sea-shanty like, full of fiddles and harmonicas and other nifty things. Loved the music.
The animation was very pretty, though I had issues with the noses...eh. Otherwise, the CG and 2d stuff was reasonably seamless, 'cept for a few iffy spots, and when Disney animates a space pirate battle, they go all out. (Space pirates! Come on, how can you not love it?) Plotwise, it was all taken from Treasure Island, though Morphy definitely would've kicked any parrot's ass, hands down. Background-wise, it was pure fluff, but it was pretty fluff, and damn if the idea of those solar ships wasn't just nifty.
And hey, at one point a character says "Blast it Jim, I'm an astronomer, not a doctor!" at which point Bo and I burst into hysterical laughter. For a very long time. We were the only ones. *sad* So go see it, so you, too, can cackle like a hysterical old skool Trekker! (Not that I would actually qualify as such, sadly, but hey, we all have our hopes, dreams and ambitions...mine just happen to be a little bit closer to space than most.)
And Martin Short was the voice of BEN "A mind is a terrible thing to lose" the robot. GO NOW. SEE MOVIE.
"Oooh, he's a rebel."
"Yep, you can tell 'cuz of the hair."
"Right, 'cuz a ponytail, that's like, the serfs against the Romans, or the Boston Tea Party. Wow. What defiance!"
(Space pirates!)
Of course, after the Beast showed up, it all went rather campily downhill fairly swiftly. However, Mani, Fronsac and the googly eyed Marquis and the twisted, evil, (yet strangely alluring) rat bastard, wotsisname were all excellent characters. Even the girl was tolerable. Best parts of the movie? The fact that they spoke in French, of course. And the fight in the rain. When Fronsac went native of the thieves was pretty damn cool, too. The scene in the chapel, the scene in the brothel with the fortuneteller (I want her fan. No, really.) and the crazy dreams, the scene after the scene in the chapel. Not the fight in the chapel- or at least, not the duel. The rest of the fight was pretty good.
Gotta love a pointless and slightly silly occult action flik. It took itself just a little too seriously, though...except for the bit with the trout. :)
Also saw Treasure Planet. GO SEE TREASURE PLANET. NOW, MINIONS, NOW! Damn Disney and their evil, wonderful animation ways. Even the rather random Johnny Rzeznik musical interlude didn't detract from the overall movie (don't get me wrong, I like some of the GooGoo Dolls stuff- don't love it, but I like it. That song just didn't fit, though. It irritated me.) The horrible sacharine opening was a bit over the top, but otherwise it was great. And aside from the Rzeznik interlude, the rest of the soundtrack was all energetic and sea-shanty like, full of fiddles and harmonicas and other nifty things. Loved the music.
The animation was very pretty, though I had issues with the noses...eh. Otherwise, the CG and 2d stuff was reasonably seamless, 'cept for a few iffy spots, and when Disney animates a space pirate battle, they go all out. (Space pirates! Come on, how can you not love it?) Plotwise, it was all taken from Treasure Island, though Morphy definitely would've kicked any parrot's ass, hands down. Background-wise, it was pure fluff, but it was pretty fluff, and damn if the idea of those solar ships wasn't just nifty.
And hey, at one point a character says "Blast it Jim, I'm an astronomer, not a doctor!" at which point Bo and I burst into hysterical laughter. For a very long time. We were the only ones. *sad* So go see it, so you, too, can cackle like a hysterical old skool Trekker! (Not that I would actually qualify as such, sadly, but hey, we all have our hopes, dreams and ambitions...mine just happen to be a little bit closer to space than most.)
And Martin Short was the voice of BEN "A mind is a terrible thing to lose" the robot. GO NOW. SEE MOVIE.
"Oooh, he's a rebel."
"Yep, you can tell 'cuz of the hair."
"Right, 'cuz a ponytail, that's like, the serfs against the Romans, or the Boston Tea Party. Wow. What defiance!"
(Space pirates!)
Hot apple cider to keep me awake, left over cookies to keep me sane, "Walking in Memphis" to keep me company...looks like I'm just about ready to write this fucker! "Forced Disappearance of Persons" is our topic, and we'll be arguing that either governements have no right to kidnap those dissenting little voices, or that hells, they get what they deserve for trying to disrupt the natural order of things, the buggers.
I haven't yet decided which way I'll argue. I'm appalled that it happens, you see, and I would like nothing better than to go on a crusade and smack the leaders of Peru, China, Argentina, Korea, t/USA, and any others into submission and free all the shining unhappy people. But it would be so much easier to say that what a country does to its citizens is its own business, and if they need to shut up those nagging little voices that make up its conscience, who are we to stand in their way? The first idea requires thought and initiative and solutions; the second requires a nice cushion to stick under the ass while we sit and do nothing.
"Of course, it would be much easier to simply let these countries do whatever they want. But at the heart of this topic, even more so than the issue of individual rights being sacrificed for national rights, is the conflict between doing what is easy, and what is right."
Oh, sweet Goddess. Blog-surfing instead of working, and I come across some right-winger's blog, doing that social and current events commentary that so many people are so fond of doing...makes me want to rend something. Ugh. I feel unclean, and it's getting difficult to type. My fingers keep trying to curl into claws.
You see, some people can take the easy route for this paper *coughcougholivercoughcough* and not feel any qualms about it. I'm sure I could, as well, if I tried hard enough. But I would feel horribly dirty doing so. My ideals are my own, and no damned audition is going to make me give them up just for the sake of a spot at Ilmunc.
I do wonder, though, if my spot this year is as guarenteed as it was in previous years. Sometimes having "connections" is a mixed blessing.
Had winter concert today, by the way. Shall officially rename winter concert to "Vera Runs in Circles". I'm tired. See Vera. See Vera play violin. See Vera play clarinet. See Vera run from stage to band room to play clarinet for five minutes. See Vera run back to stage by way of choir room to grab violin. See Vera play violin. See Vera run. Run, Vera, Run! They're on stage already! See Vera change bowtie and cumerbund in record time. See Vera run, once again. See Vera be last on stage! Look at Vera wandering around on stage! See her grab stand and fall into chair. Oh, Vera! Now see her play clarinet- out of tune.
Oh well. At least it's the last winter concert ever. Never gonna have to run 'round like that again. *sigh*
I haven't yet decided which way I'll argue. I'm appalled that it happens, you see, and I would like nothing better than to go on a crusade and smack the leaders of Peru, China, Argentina, Korea, t/USA, and any others into submission and free all the shining unhappy people. But it would be so much easier to say that what a country does to its citizens is its own business, and if they need to shut up those nagging little voices that make up its conscience, who are we to stand in their way? The first idea requires thought and initiative and solutions; the second requires a nice cushion to stick under the ass while we sit and do nothing.
"Of course, it would be much easier to simply let these countries do whatever they want. But at the heart of this topic, even more so than the issue of individual rights being sacrificed for national rights, is the conflict between doing what is easy, and what is right."
Oh, sweet Goddess. Blog-surfing instead of working, and I come across some right-winger's blog, doing that social and current events commentary that so many people are so fond of doing...makes me want to rend something. Ugh. I feel unclean, and it's getting difficult to type. My fingers keep trying to curl into claws.
You see, some people can take the easy route for this paper *coughcougholivercoughcough* and not feel any qualms about it. I'm sure I could, as well, if I tried hard enough. But I would feel horribly dirty doing so. My ideals are my own, and no damned audition is going to make me give them up just for the sake of a spot at Ilmunc.
I do wonder, though, if my spot this year is as guarenteed as it was in previous years. Sometimes having "connections" is a mixed blessing.
Had winter concert today, by the way. Shall officially rename winter concert to "Vera Runs in Circles". I'm tired. See Vera. See Vera play violin. See Vera play clarinet. See Vera run from stage to band room to play clarinet for five minutes. See Vera run back to stage by way of choir room to grab violin. See Vera play violin. See Vera run. Run, Vera, Run! They're on stage already! See Vera change bowtie and cumerbund in record time. See Vera run, once again. See Vera be last on stage! Look at Vera wandering around on stage! See her grab stand and fall into chair. Oh, Vera! Now see her play clarinet- out of tune.
Oh well. At least it's the last winter concert ever. Never gonna have to run 'round like that again. *sigh*
Monday, December 09, 2002
I'm quite convinced that if I ever met someone exactly like me one of several things might happen: a) we'd hate each other b) we'd fall in love c) we'd stare at each other for a moment, and then pointedly ingore each other for the rest of our lives.
No in between. I've come to the rather uncomfortable conclusion that among the people that I know, I am unique, and despite what all those self esteem programs may have tried to convince me of, I don't really think I like it.
Pardon me, I'm sounding like a pompous ass...my apologies. I can't shake the feeling, though- some day I'm going to find someone I can feel comfortable whining at, so I won't have to keep whining at myself, quietly, in private. What's that you say? Don't I whine often enough here? Indeed. But that's all superficial...as most things are.
I'm being bitter again, aren't I? I apologise again. I'm also being cryptic, but I enjoy being cryptic to a rather frightening extent. (It would explain why I can't write anything with a simple, straightforward plot or backstory- it all has to be needlessly complicated...and I always have to be needlessly closemouthed.)
I'm just tired, that's all. It's late, relatively. And it's been a long day. A fairly good day, but long.
No in between. I've come to the rather uncomfortable conclusion that among the people that I know, I am unique, and despite what all those self esteem programs may have tried to convince me of, I don't really think I like it.
Pardon me, I'm sounding like a pompous ass...my apologies. I can't shake the feeling, though- some day I'm going to find someone I can feel comfortable whining at, so I won't have to keep whining at myself, quietly, in private. What's that you say? Don't I whine often enough here? Indeed. But that's all superficial...as most things are.
I'm being bitter again, aren't I? I apologise again. I'm also being cryptic, but I enjoy being cryptic to a rather frightening extent. (It would explain why I can't write anything with a simple, straightforward plot or backstory- it all has to be needlessly complicated...and I always have to be needlessly closemouthed.)
I'm just tired, that's all. It's late, relatively. And it's been a long day. A fairly good day, but long.
Nn. The backstory for that snippet was inspired by Trigun when I first started watching it...so it takes place in a desert, more or less. It's a western, sort of. Still debating whether or not Ev's a guy or a crossdressing girl. He was originally a guy- but then I decided he'd be a hell of a lot more amusing as a girl- but then again, he's still fairly batty as a guy.
The Bayonne reference just means he was born in an area notorious for the levels of nuclear radiation in the soil, air, and water- it's a prison colony, actually, but he won't say why his mother ended up there, or why he stayed so long. Regardless, he's really not a bad person...maybe a tad psychotic, but you can always chalk that up to a bad case of ADD (which I would swear he has, little crackhead that he is...) and certainly a bit rambunctious...the murder charges were either accidents or in self-defense. Ev's idea of self defense, however, involves 'shoot first, question later', so the courts don't much like him.
He's a nuisance, really. Harmless if you feed him, but he'll hang around forever like some kind of demented puppy if you do (and put bullet holes in all the pans if you don't).
The kid's an elf, raised to be an assassin- only he misplaced his target and is rather clueless and naive. His name's Blue Roses, and while it's a rather silly name, cookies go to whoever catches the reference, and it's a typical elf name. Elves are mutated creatures like the people from Bayonne- pointy ears, huge hands, dense skeletal structure, and antennae. Very tough, very intelligent, very pliable at a young age. The names are based on an obscure code from back when flowers actually grew in the desert.
The other main character is an ex cop named Samuel Dune, Ev's best friend and arch nemesis, all rolled into one. Dune's rather ruthlessly practical, and never had much patience for Ev's antics...they're complete opposites, really. Highly amusing when they're in the same room and armed with enough fire power to decimate a small city. (The two things they have in common are a loathing of shiitake mushrooms and a love of guns.)
It doesn't have a real name...but the working titled would be Black Heart. 'Cuz Ev's cool like that. He's got a goatee (unless he's a girl). And cornrows. And he looks damn silly, but that's okay, 'cuz he's Ev. (Dune calls him a braided idiot, almost a la Heero of GW, only not. "Your hair's screwin' with your head, Ev. Loosen your braids for a sec and think for once, y'moron.")
The Bayonne reference just means he was born in an area notorious for the levels of nuclear radiation in the soil, air, and water- it's a prison colony, actually, but he won't say why his mother ended up there, or why he stayed so long. Regardless, he's really not a bad person...maybe a tad psychotic, but you can always chalk that up to a bad case of ADD (which I would swear he has, little crackhead that he is...) and certainly a bit rambunctious...the murder charges were either accidents or in self-defense. Ev's idea of self defense, however, involves 'shoot first, question later', so the courts don't much like him.
He's a nuisance, really. Harmless if you feed him, but he'll hang around forever like some kind of demented puppy if you do (and put bullet holes in all the pans if you don't).
The kid's an elf, raised to be an assassin- only he misplaced his target and is rather clueless and naive. His name's Blue Roses, and while it's a rather silly name, cookies go to whoever catches the reference, and it's a typical elf name. Elves are mutated creatures like the people from Bayonne- pointy ears, huge hands, dense skeletal structure, and antennae. Very tough, very intelligent, very pliable at a young age. The names are based on an obscure code from back when flowers actually grew in the desert.
The other main character is an ex cop named Samuel Dune, Ev's best friend and arch nemesis, all rolled into one. Dune's rather ruthlessly practical, and never had much patience for Ev's antics...they're complete opposites, really. Highly amusing when they're in the same room and armed with enough fire power to decimate a small city. (The two things they have in common are a loathing of shiitake mushrooms and a love of guns.)
It doesn't have a real name...but the working titled would be Black Heart. 'Cuz Ev's cool like that. He's got a goatee (unless he's a girl). And cornrows. And he looks damn silly, but that's okay, 'cuz he's Ev. (Dune calls him a braided idiot, almost a la Heero of GW, only not. "Your hair's screwin' with your head, Ev. Loosen your braids for a sec and think for once, y'moron.")
Ev's hand closed over the man's wrist, seemingly gently- until the bouncer's face turned red and his lips turned white as Ev gradually applied greater pressure. "The kid was just looking for a bite to eat. No crime in that, is there?"
"Bayonne scum," the man spat. "Elf loving filth!" Ev's smile broadened.
"Now, now, just because I don't like having my drink interrupted," he gave the man's wrist a vicious twist, "doesn't give you the right to call names. So why don't you just sit back down, and leave me in peace, eh?"
In response, the man spat in his face. Ev sighed and pulled a frilly handkerchief out of his pocket with his free hand, and wiped the glob of spittle from his cheek. "Now that, my friend, was a bad idea." He smiled cheerfully and twisted the man's wrist again, dealing him a swift kick to the groin while doing so. The brawler went down, and the bar errupted.
Ev grinned and tossed the kid over his shoulder, unsurprised that the blue haired little freak weighed more than he looked. A gleaming black pistol appeared in his free hand as he leapt across the tables, avoiding bullets and cutlery. The a bullet whizzed by one ear, and the kid whimpered quietly. A boot to the face put one snarling thug out of his misery; Ev pistol whipped anyone in range, not really wanting to kill anyone. The brawler with the broken wrist staggered to his feet, murder evident in every ragged inch of him. Ev reconsidered. Sometimes it was best to do society a favor- and his bullets would be untraceable in the free for all he'd started.
The man went down in a satisfying gout of blood; Ev ducked a thrown chair and high tailed it out the window. With any luck, it would be hours before anyone came looking for him- he'd be checked out of his motel and on his way down the highway before anyone even thought to connect the fight with him. He resettled his hat on his head and set off down a back alley at an easy, ground eating lope. The kid whimpered again, and Ev could feel wetness spreading across his shoulder. He eased his stride a little; no point in sending the boy into shock.
"You didn't get clipped there, didja?"
"...Yes."
"Aw, hells. Don't worry, kid- I'll patch you up when we get back to my place. But we gotta be outta here by evenin', or they'll be after your hide."
"What about you?" The boy had a feathery, fluting voice- it reminded Ev of the grass cats around Bayonne. The brawler in the bar had marked him well- Ev was a Bayonne brat, born and bred and mutated.
"Shit, kid, they're already after my skin. Don't you know who I am?"
"Er...no."
"You've just had the honor of bein' rescued by none other than the one, the only, Evlas Heart- The Black Heart. They've got a bounty on me worth a rentboy in Ravagad and then some. Wanted for murder, arson, and in general makin' a nuisance of myself to the law- you can call me Ev."
"That's nice, Ev. Never heard of you. Thanks, though..." Ev snorted as the kid fainted from bloodloss and shock. Just his luck to get landed with the only person planetside who didn't have a clue who he was. And here I thought my reputation preceded me wherever I went...
"Bayonne scum," the man spat. "Elf loving filth!" Ev's smile broadened.
"Now, now, just because I don't like having my drink interrupted," he gave the man's wrist a vicious twist, "doesn't give you the right to call names. So why don't you just sit back down, and leave me in peace, eh?"
In response, the man spat in his face. Ev sighed and pulled a frilly handkerchief out of his pocket with his free hand, and wiped the glob of spittle from his cheek. "Now that, my friend, was a bad idea." He smiled cheerfully and twisted the man's wrist again, dealing him a swift kick to the groin while doing so. The brawler went down, and the bar errupted.
Ev grinned and tossed the kid over his shoulder, unsurprised that the blue haired little freak weighed more than he looked. A gleaming black pistol appeared in his free hand as he leapt across the tables, avoiding bullets and cutlery. The a bullet whizzed by one ear, and the kid whimpered quietly. A boot to the face put one snarling thug out of his misery; Ev pistol whipped anyone in range, not really wanting to kill anyone. The brawler with the broken wrist staggered to his feet, murder evident in every ragged inch of him. Ev reconsidered. Sometimes it was best to do society a favor- and his bullets would be untraceable in the free for all he'd started.
The man went down in a satisfying gout of blood; Ev ducked a thrown chair and high tailed it out the window. With any luck, it would be hours before anyone came looking for him- he'd be checked out of his motel and on his way down the highway before anyone even thought to connect the fight with him. He resettled his hat on his head and set off down a back alley at an easy, ground eating lope. The kid whimpered again, and Ev could feel wetness spreading across his shoulder. He eased his stride a little; no point in sending the boy into shock.
"You didn't get clipped there, didja?"
"...Yes."
"Aw, hells. Don't worry, kid- I'll patch you up when we get back to my place. But we gotta be outta here by evenin', or they'll be after your hide."
"What about you?" The boy had a feathery, fluting voice- it reminded Ev of the grass cats around Bayonne. The brawler in the bar had marked him well- Ev was a Bayonne brat, born and bred and mutated.
"Shit, kid, they're already after my skin. Don't you know who I am?"
"Er...no."
"You've just had the honor of bein' rescued by none other than the one, the only, Evlas Heart- The Black Heart. They've got a bounty on me worth a rentboy in Ravagad and then some. Wanted for murder, arson, and in general makin' a nuisance of myself to the law- you can call me Ev."
"That's nice, Ev. Never heard of you. Thanks, though..." Ev snorted as the kid fainted from bloodloss and shock. Just his luck to get landed with the only person planetside who didn't have a clue who he was. And here I thought my reputation preceded me wherever I went...
Screw destiny. I'll do whatever the fuck I want, and if whatever aspect of fate has decided to wrap her claws around my life doesn't quit it with the nudging I swear I'll find some way to strangle the bitch. Yes, I am fine, and no I am not explaining myself. Piss off.
Also, I have made Adobe and all its products my mortal enemy. They will suffer, and then die a horrible death involving beeswax and broken sporks.
...
...
When trying to print out her application materials, she suddenly realized that there was no black ink. As if to add insult to injury, the printer claimed that the document could not be printed. For a moment, there was a terrible silence. Multitudes of small animals were seen fleeing the area around her home, and small children suddenly sat up in bed, cowering with fear. People were seen running, screaming "Duck and cover" ten miles away, for such was the extent of her raging.
Also, I have made Adobe and all its products my mortal enemy. They will suffer, and then die a horrible death involving beeswax and broken sporks.
...
...
When trying to print out her application materials, she suddenly realized that there was no black ink. As if to add insult to injury, the printer claimed that the document could not be printed. For a moment, there was a terrible silence. Multitudes of small animals were seen fleeing the area around her home, and small children suddenly sat up in bed, cowering with fear. People were seen running, screaming "Duck and cover" ten miles away, for such was the extent of her raging.
*doublesigh* Don't know what happened to my copy of A Christmas Attic...and I could really use some high holy battle music to listen to.
What? Come on now, don't tell me the first thing "Christmas Eve Sarajevo" makes you think of isn't some war on a grand scale, all the forces of heaven and hell duking it out over a stable with fire, brimstone, and flying feathers. The works, you know- Michael and his sword, Gabriel with his trumpet, The Metatron's voice roaring out over it all, while creatures beyond nightmares slink and scowl and leap and attack- that sort of thing. Visual association- it's all black and white, red and shining gold, and burning stars.
I love this song. I'm no big fan of Christmas music normally, mind you- too saccharine sweet, makes my teeth rot. The Trans-Siberian Orchestra doesn't add much sweetener to their music...which pleases me greatly. "Christmas Eve Sarajevo" and the BNL/Sarah MacLachlan version of "We Three Kings"/"Merry Gentlemen" are really all that I can stand without flinching. Y'know, during their off season, they're called Psychic Fusion? Or so I've heard, at any rate. And that's just fair nifty, y'know? What I wouldn't give to see 'em live...
I've decided to throw in with the rest of 'em- I'm not going to college, I'm going to play a kazoo in a garage band, and tour the world. We'll call ourselves "We Don't Need No College, Yo" and we'll be an international success.
waaaauuuuuuugggghhhh.
What? Come on now, don't tell me the first thing "Christmas Eve Sarajevo" makes you think of isn't some war on a grand scale, all the forces of heaven and hell duking it out over a stable with fire, brimstone, and flying feathers. The works, you know- Michael and his sword, Gabriel with his trumpet, The Metatron's voice roaring out over it all, while creatures beyond nightmares slink and scowl and leap and attack- that sort of thing. Visual association- it's all black and white, red and shining gold, and burning stars.
I love this song. I'm no big fan of Christmas music normally, mind you- too saccharine sweet, makes my teeth rot. The Trans-Siberian Orchestra doesn't add much sweetener to their music...which pleases me greatly. "Christmas Eve Sarajevo" and the BNL/Sarah MacLachlan version of "We Three Kings"/"Merry Gentlemen" are really all that I can stand without flinching. Y'know, during their off season, they're called Psychic Fusion? Or so I've heard, at any rate. And that's just fair nifty, y'know? What I wouldn't give to see 'em live...
I've decided to throw in with the rest of 'em- I'm not going to college, I'm going to play a kazoo in a garage band, and tour the world. We'll call ourselves "We Don't Need No College, Yo" and we'll be an international success.
waaaauuuuuuugggghhhh.
Sunday, December 08, 2002
I've found places to download sheet music from. Be afraid. Be very afraid. Because I can now play the opening theme to Crono Cross on my violin. Hmwahaha! And I'm teaching myself to play the piano, because I've got the music to the Wild Arms opening theme, my favoritist opening theme ever, even more so than the tinkly harp opener to FF4. (Which I can also download the music to, by the way.) Yay for sheet music!
*excerpt from me playing piano*
"And then you go there and that finger goes there and we all press the keys at the same time and it sounds like that, and then we do it all over again in another measure and- no! Left hand does this! Stop that! Bad hand! ...What the hell is that note? *turns paper upside down* ...Oh. It was a C. I apologize, left hand. Right. Where was I?"
It's not going all that great...but I can play the first page! and I can play the top line and bottom line when they're separate...just not both hands at the same time, unless I'm playing it very, very slowly. As in, 56 beats per hour, slowly. *_* If humans only had one hand, I wouldn't be having this problem...:)
*excerpt from me playing piano*
"And then you go there and that finger goes there and we all press the keys at the same time and it sounds like that, and then we do it all over again in another measure and- no! Left hand does this! Stop that! Bad hand! ...What the hell is that note? *turns paper upside down* ...Oh. It was a C. I apologize, left hand. Right. Where was I?"
It's not going all that great...but I can play the first page! and I can play the top line and bottom line when they're separate...just not both hands at the same time, unless I'm playing it very, very slowly. As in, 56 beats per hour, slowly. *_* If humans only had one hand, I wouldn't be having this problem...:)
Saturday, December 07, 2002
Ugh. Isn't it horrible that you never notice how badly you've been grinding your teeth until you try to chew on something? And also: cold as in left on the counter dumplings are just fine, but cold as in refridgerated ones are two and a half kinds of disgusting.
Jeez, I haven't had such a free weekend since the summer- four days off, nothing to do but laze and occasionally think about college, and I have tonight off! Nothing to do, don't need to go to sleep- I'm watching YYH, come hell or high water. Bwahaha!
Jeez, I haven't had such a free weekend since the summer- four days off, nothing to do but laze and occasionally think about college, and I have tonight off! Nothing to do, don't need to go to sleep- I'm watching YYH, come hell or high water. Bwahaha!
Am I the only one who's deeply disturbed by FFX2? Is there no one else who finds Yuna's makeover horribly traumatizing? I mean, damn it! It looks like they took the original Yuna and crossbred her with Lulu and Rikku and Dona to make some sort of...I don't even know. The only plot-device-female that I liked, of all eight of the games that I've seen, and now they've turned her into...gah. The skirt! Why the skirt?! It's just so wrong...
Okay...so there was something wrong with the template. Fine. But was it really necessary for me to resort to this...this...blah. *kicks blogger* grr. The change is only temporary, kiddies...dun worry.
In other news, I have finished my college essays. All I need now are my writing samples (and, okay fine, one more essay really, but who's counting? I'm not.) and then I'll be done. Once I fill out the nitpicky stuff. *sigh* Yayness...
In other news, I have finished my college essays. All I need now are my writing samples (and, okay fine, one more essay really, but who's counting? I'm not.) and then I'll be done. Once I fill out the nitpicky stuff. *sigh* Yayness...
Friday, December 06, 2002
Wednesday, December 04, 2002
Hey, look, winamp wants me to write fanfiction for obscure games from the early/mid '90s! It pulled Setzer (that's Setzer, not Lorraine, doofus, and I can't believe no one catches the reference, it makes me feel like such a middle skool dork...not even old skool *sniffle*) on Blue...and if that doesn't feel like it's asking for a fic, I don't know what is.
Sorry winamp. I don't do fanfic. It never goes well. (Meaning that I can't write other people's characters. I can barely write my own and keep them in character. *_* Then again, if I didn't ignore my stories for several months on end, I might have an easier time of it...)
Oh, KE, the song is called "Knockin' on Heaven's Door" sung by Mai Yamane from the Cowboy Bebop Movie of the same name...you can try to download it from Morpheus, or you can find it in the music section at The Jazz Messengers (my new favorite site) under the downloads section in the music library. Scroll allaway down. It's a sort of bluesy jazz-ish thing and Mai Yamane sounds like she was gargling gravel prior to singing...but she always sounds like that. (Gravel or no, I still want her voice. Or Aoi Tada's voice. Maybe Steve Conte's, but only to keep in a box. I'd be rather silly, singing with Steve Conte's voice, now wouldn't I? I'd sound rather silly with Mai Yamane's voice too, come to think of it...)
Hope the psych paper didn't cause your head to explode...that would be messy, and it would make me very sad. ;_; No exploding heads allowed. I'll inflict an excess of very random smilies on you. ~..~ (squinty) o| (cyclops with a monocle) >:?| (large nose)
Sorry winamp. I don't do fanfic. It never goes well. (Meaning that I can't write other people's characters. I can barely write my own and keep them in character. *_* Then again, if I didn't ignore my stories for several months on end, I might have an easier time of it...)
Oh, KE, the song is called "Knockin' on Heaven's Door" sung by Mai Yamane from the Cowboy Bebop Movie of the same name...you can try to download it from Morpheus, or you can find it in the music section at The Jazz Messengers (my new favorite site) under the downloads section in the music library. Scroll allaway down. It's a sort of bluesy jazz-ish thing and Mai Yamane sounds like she was gargling gravel prior to singing...but she always sounds like that. (Gravel or no, I still want her voice. Or Aoi Tada's voice. Maybe Steve Conte's, but only to keep in a box. I'd be rather silly, singing with Steve Conte's voice, now wouldn't I? I'd sound rather silly with Mai Yamane's voice too, come to think of it...)
Hope the psych paper didn't cause your head to explode...that would be messy, and it would make me very sad. ;_; No exploding heads allowed. I'll inflict an excess of very random smilies on you. ~..~ (squinty) o| (cyclops with a monocle) >:?| (large nose)
Oh, come on- I think I'd look kinda nifty with spikey green hair. No tank top with tie, though. *cough* Really now, I'm not *that* far gone...However, if my hair should decide to turn green at any point, any persons found coming near me with red hair ties, hair bands, or other hair accessories in a scarlet hue shall be sacked. (My hair is sentient, you see. Thus, it would not be my decision. *grin*)
...the persons responsible for sacking said persons shall then be sacked. And then those persons, too, shall be sacked. Because I said so.
My melodrama is getting better; the doctors said the swelling should go down by the end of the holidays. :) No, really.
doodoododoo...I downloaded "If You Could Only See" by Tonic, and got some strange not-quite acoustic version. *sigh* Dun know why I downloaded that particular song...while I normally consider myself to be a more auditory oriented person, I'm leaning more towards being a visual person, lately. Rather than working on the stupid nano thing, I drew a cover for it. I rather like it, but since my scanner is a piece of junk right now, it'll stay in my math notebook. I do have a difficult time visualizing people and places, and I can't recognizes faces at all (wouldn't recognize my parents if I didn't see 'em ...almost every day- and there was a very long period of time during which I wouldn't recognize myself in a mirror immediately- I had no concept of what my own face looked like) but when I'm writing or listening to music or what-have-you, I visualize things.
I think it would be utterly kick-ass cool to be an animator or a movie director, because then I could let other people see the images in my head...I'd love to be able to do that. Music is a slightly different creature...when I hear music, I see it, too- shapes and colors and vague implications of form and texture, and occasional images. I usually have to concentrate on the music to see it, and even then, it's more of an image association thing- I say cow, you say the first thing that pops into your head- I hear "No Such Thing", I see gray boxes and warm dark gold walls. That's a really bad way to describe the actual images, but again...you can't always do with words what you can with images.
Not too sure why I went off on this particular tangent...I fell a little silly now. Listening to "Bloody Sunday", and the colors are red and gray...with a touch of the back of the conference room on the second floor of the Regency Hyatt in New Brunswick. *coughcough* Not that that particular image has much to do with anything, of course...
...the persons responsible for sacking said persons shall then be sacked. And then those persons, too, shall be sacked. Because I said so.
My melodrama is getting better; the doctors said the swelling should go down by the end of the holidays. :) No, really.
doodoododoo...I downloaded "If You Could Only See" by Tonic, and got some strange not-quite acoustic version. *sigh* Dun know why I downloaded that particular song...while I normally consider myself to be a more auditory oriented person, I'm leaning more towards being a visual person, lately. Rather than working on the stupid nano thing, I drew a cover for it. I rather like it, but since my scanner is a piece of junk right now, it'll stay in my math notebook. I do have a difficult time visualizing people and places, and I can't recognizes faces at all (wouldn't recognize my parents if I didn't see 'em ...almost every day- and there was a very long period of time during which I wouldn't recognize myself in a mirror immediately- I had no concept of what my own face looked like) but when I'm writing or listening to music or what-have-you, I visualize things.
I think it would be utterly kick-ass cool to be an animator or a movie director, because then I could let other people see the images in my head...I'd love to be able to do that. Music is a slightly different creature...when I hear music, I see it, too- shapes and colors and vague implications of form and texture, and occasional images. I usually have to concentrate on the music to see it, and even then, it's more of an image association thing- I say cow, you say the first thing that pops into your head- I hear "No Such Thing", I see gray boxes and warm dark gold walls. That's a really bad way to describe the actual images, but again...you can't always do with words what you can with images.
Not too sure why I went off on this particular tangent...I fell a little silly now. Listening to "Bloody Sunday", and the colors are red and gray...with a touch of the back of the conference room on the second floor of the Regency Hyatt in New Brunswick. *coughcough* Not that that particular image has much to do with anything, of course...
Monday, December 02, 2002
How's this for random- I'm feeling an inexplicable urge to cut my own hair. Just a hack-hack-snip-hack sort of urge...something short and spikey and disturbing. *toothy grin*
Definitely shouldn't listen to "Knock a Little Harder" when feeling dangerously moody...slinking in the shadows, but they're too bright to hide me this time. *toothier grin* Just a little bit primitive, a little bit savage, a little bit deadly...
Happiness is just a word to me
And it might have meant a thing or two
If I'd known the difference
Emptiness, a lonely parody
And my life, another smokin' gun
A sign of my indifference
Always keepin' safe inside
Where no one ever had a chance
To penetrate a break in
Let me tell you some have tried
But I would slam the door so tight
That they could never get in
Kept my cool under lock and key
And I never shed a tear
Another sign of my condidtion
Fear of love or bitter vanity
That kept me on the run
The main events at my confession
I kept a chain upon my door
That would shake the shame of Cain
Into a blind submission
The burning ghost without a name
Was calling all the same
But just I wouldn't listen
The longer I'd stall
The further I'd crawl
The further I'd crawl
The harder I'd fall
I was crawlin' into the fire
The more that I saw
The further I'd fall
The further I'd fall
The lower I'd crawl
I kept fallin' into the fire
Into the fire
Into the fire Suddenly it occurred to me
The reason for the run and hide
Had totaled my existence
Everything left on the other side
Could never be much worse that this
But could I go the distance
I faced the door and all my shame
Tearin' off each piece of chain
Until they all were broken
But no matter how I tried
The other side was locked so tight
The door it wouldn't open
Gave it all that I got
And started to knock
Shouted for someone
To open the lock
I just gotta get through the door
And the more that I knocked
The hotter I got
The hotter I got
The harder I'd knock
I just gotta break through the door
Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Break through the door
Definitely shouldn't listen to "Knock a Little Harder" when feeling dangerously moody...slinking in the shadows, but they're too bright to hide me this time. *toothier grin* Just a little bit primitive, a little bit savage, a little bit deadly...
Happiness is just a word to me
And it might have meant a thing or two
If I'd known the difference
Emptiness, a lonely parody
And my life, another smokin' gun
A sign of my indifference
Always keepin' safe inside
Where no one ever had a chance
To penetrate a break in
Let me tell you some have tried
But I would slam the door so tight
That they could never get in
Kept my cool under lock and key
And I never shed a tear
Another sign of my condidtion
Fear of love or bitter vanity
That kept me on the run
The main events at my confession
I kept a chain upon my door
That would shake the shame of Cain
Into a blind submission
The burning ghost without a name
Was calling all the same
But just I wouldn't listen
The longer I'd stall
The further I'd crawl
The further I'd crawl
The harder I'd fall
I was crawlin' into the fire
The more that I saw
The further I'd fall
The further I'd fall
The lower I'd crawl
I kept fallin' into the fire
Into the fire
Into the fire Suddenly it occurred to me
The reason for the run and hide
Had totaled my existence
Everything left on the other side
Could never be much worse that this
But could I go the distance
I faced the door and all my shame
Tearin' off each piece of chain
Until they all were broken
But no matter how I tried
The other side was locked so tight
The door it wouldn't open
Gave it all that I got
And started to knock
Shouted for someone
To open the lock
I just gotta get through the door
And the more that I knocked
The hotter I got
The hotter I got
The harder I'd knock
I just gotta break through the door
Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Break through the door
Having finally found a good place with bebop fanstuff, my obsession with the series has grown threefold.
*sigh* I want a wacom...
And it seems that the season is getting to me- else I wouldn't have done a welcome song for calling the four directions. There's something about Yule, and winter...love it. Love the winter, love the darkness, love the way the only green things left are the pine trees and the holly bushes and the ivy crawling all along the fence...love the way the stars creep into familiar patterns when I look up (Orion marching across the sky, doing battle with the gods) and the way the air turns to glass.
Of course, it's damn depressing, too...another year over, come to an end, another year wasted, another year full of unfinished projects and broken promises and forgotten phone calls and misplaced emotions- chalk it all up to seasonal moodiness, and pour yourself another drink. This one's on me, boys...here's to December.
*sigh* I want a wacom...
And it seems that the season is getting to me- else I wouldn't have done a welcome song for calling the four directions. There's something about Yule, and winter...love it. Love the winter, love the darkness, love the way the only green things left are the pine trees and the holly bushes and the ivy crawling all along the fence...love the way the stars creep into familiar patterns when I look up (Orion marching across the sky, doing battle with the gods) and the way the air turns to glass.
Of course, it's damn depressing, too...another year over, come to an end, another year wasted, another year full of unfinished projects and broken promises and forgotten phone calls and misplaced emotions- chalk it all up to seasonal moodiness, and pour yourself another drink. This one's on me, boys...here's to December.
Oh! Ye children of Wind, from far off sunset lands, come play awhile at my hearth.
The night is yet young, the fire is still bright
and we can laugh and sing long into the night
Come keep me company at my hearth.
Oh! Ye children of Fire, from bright southern walks, come stay awhile at my hearth
Our celebration begins with free flowing wine
And there will be revels and dancing fine
Come join us at my hearth
Oh! Ye children of Water, from sunset seas, come rest awhile at my hearth
The sky grows dark and the shadows long
To stop for the night would not be wrong
Please, put up your feet at my hearth
Oh! Ye children of Earth, from cold windy climes, come visit awhile at my hearth.
The fire is warm, the food is good
There's a place at my table, if you would
Come share the bounty of my hearth.
The night is yet young, the fire is still bright
and we can laugh and sing long into the night
Come keep me company at my hearth.
Oh! Ye children of Fire, from bright southern walks, come stay awhile at my hearth
Our celebration begins with free flowing wine
And there will be revels and dancing fine
Come join us at my hearth
Oh! Ye children of Water, from sunset seas, come rest awhile at my hearth
The sky grows dark and the shadows long
To stop for the night would not be wrong
Please, put up your feet at my hearth
Oh! Ye children of Earth, from cold windy climes, come visit awhile at my hearth.
The fire is warm, the food is good
There's a place at my table, if you would
Come share the bounty of my hearth.
slightly editted to be somewhat more amusing...
"If you feel like a fish, have the fish. If you feel like a moo cow, have the broil. If you feel like a bird, you're shit out of luck."
"I wonder...could I make some sort of moo-fish-duken?"
"Eeew."
"Fish stuffed cow!"
"Would it go gargle gargle moo, then?"
"Fish don't gargle!"
"If you stuff them in a cow they might!"
"Hmm...But which stomach would I stuff it in?"
"Too much to think about. I'd just eat pie."
"You call bringing portents of DOOM!"
"What kind of doom? Pink and fluffy doom?"
"Doesn't sound very doom like..."
"Scares the shit out of me."
"If you feel like a fish, have the fish. If you feel like a moo cow, have the broil. If you feel like a bird, you're shit out of luck."
"I wonder...could I make some sort of moo-fish-duken?"
"Eeew."
"Fish stuffed cow!"
"Would it go gargle gargle moo, then?"
"Fish don't gargle!"
"If you stuff them in a cow they might!"
"Hmm...But which stomach would I stuff it in?"
"Too much to think about. I'd just eat pie."
"You call bringing portents of DOOM!"
"What kind of doom? Pink and fluffy doom?"
"Doesn't sound very doom like..."
"Scares the shit out of me."
Sunday, December 01, 2002
Y'know what sucks? No, I don't suppose you do. That's okay. I don't think I'll tell you.
On a side note, I really, really wish I had a proper internet connection. It brings me to tears, watching other people download mp3s in six seconds- on a slow day.
That's not what I came here to say, of course. I can't exactly remember what it was...hmm.
I had a good time today, though. Not that you'll ever read this, but I did. Naturally, this makes me somewhat...melancholy? Like the playlist? Oi...*giggle*
On a side note, I really, really wish I had a proper internet connection. It brings me to tears, watching other people download mp3s in six seconds- on a slow day.
That's not what I came here to say, of course. I can't exactly remember what it was...hmm.
I had a good time today, though. Not that you'll ever read this, but I did. Naturally, this makes me somewhat...melancholy? Like the playlist? Oi...*giggle*
Happy December, all. College sucks. No, really. I'm going to have to apply to Rutgers in secret, to hide my shame. *weeps*
Like they all won't notice if I show up next year, wandering the streets of New Brunswick like some little lost child (like, nothing- I'll be a little lost child). I can just hear the snickering, now. "So much for getting out of New Jersey, eh? Too bad about the college thing, you know."
Yadda yadda, blah blah blah. *snort* I'll get these damn things done if it kills me, I swear.
...of course, if they kill me, the whole college thing will be quite moot, won't it? Hmm...
Like they all won't notice if I show up next year, wandering the streets of New Brunswick like some little lost child (like, nothing- I'll be a little lost child). I can just hear the snickering, now. "So much for getting out of New Jersey, eh? Too bad about the college thing, you know."
Yadda yadda, blah blah blah. *snort* I'll get these damn things done if it kills me, I swear.
...of course, if they kill me, the whole college thing will be quite moot, won't it? Hmm...
It doesn't get any easier, you know.
Nor does it ever make any more sense.
And we can try to apologize
Until we finally realize
That it doesn't matter which way we go.
It doesn't matter how hard we try
Or how many times we ask
For forgiveness.
It's impossible to put these things in the past
Impossible to discern truth from lie
and in the end, there is
No forgiveness.
I would say I'm sorry, but I've forgotten how.
It never makes any more sense.
Nor does it ever make any more sense.
And we can try to apologize
Until we finally realize
That it doesn't matter which way we go.
It doesn't matter how hard we try
Or how many times we ask
For forgiveness.
It's impossible to put these things in the past
Impossible to discern truth from lie
and in the end, there is
No forgiveness.
I would say I'm sorry, but I've forgotten how.
It never makes any more sense.