December Notes part 2

Wanktastic! In which I talk about December's Impossible Project, because I don't feel like doing actual writing.

10. Hands. I like sap, particularly when my two favorite characters are involved. Kakashi/Iruka is the pairing that got me into the fandom, so you could say that it's indirectly responsible for the whole mess of December's Impossible Project. This particular piece was written while ignoring the Stupid Girl(tm) in creative writing. I love the idea of Kakashi being incredibly emotionally fragile, because it works so well next to Iruka's emotional stability.

11. Small, Perfect Things. That isn't the actual title; the actual title is probably something even more obscure, like "Raining in Baltimore" or "Seven Thousand Cups of Tea." I don't know. I started writing smut and it exploded on me. Took forever to get the stains off the keyboard.

There's a premise to this thing, and it involves Iruka having migraines and being slightly bipolar as a result of something that I have yet to determine at this point in time. It'll result in Tsunade beating him over the head and medicating him; once the medication kicks in properly, he'll be a functioning human being again, but until that point he's slightly crazy. ("Fuck, you're ticking! I can hear it!") You can't actually see that in what I have written, but if I finish it, it'll be there.

It was the "faceless strangers" line that started this, and the rest just grew out of that. I really love the idea of emotionally fragile Kakashi, though I know I overdid it a bit in the drunken table scene and at the very end. He's fragile and bumbling, not weepy and desperate. (But I like the drunken table scene, no matter how out of character it is.)

The reason this whole story is essentially scrap is because it requires me to find reasons for Iruka to be constantly pissed off at Kakashi, and I can't actually write Kakashi as being that socially inept, not when he actually has a vested interest in having these interactions work out in his favor. (No one reads that much porn because they're getting laid on a regular basis, you know.) I can write Iruka going off the handle fairly easily, but I can't write Kakashi fucking things up that badly.

There are parts that I feel are well done, and parts that I hate, (all of the last scene aside from Iruka's "right angle" speech, whenever Kakashi isn't talking to the table leg, almost all of the Naruto scene...) so I can't quite bring myself to scrap it all and I can't quite bring myself to finish it. Alas. Also, I still can't believe I actually wrote "...unless that was a kunai in his pocket." *black, black shame*

12 Conglomerate. Not much to say- it's another sci-fi story with super powerful shapeshifters with facial markings and dragons that ends up being mostly about sex. Vaz is an asshole with a heart of tiny nanomachines, and he has Shino's last name for a reason. Evidently there's something inspiring about the chips at Blanchard, since there was really no other reason for this entire scene to appear in my head during dinner that day.

13 Rain. Excessively pointless Vagrant Story wankery. I should've written about zombies instead.

14 Scars. I like abusing Dei, and Tristan has a crush on him- something which neither of them really understands (I don't either) but they deal with it by ignoring it most of the time. Teia refers to Shateiel in human form, when she's acting as Dei's secretary. Tristan is creepy when he's being Oedipal; it's also a little sad that the only way Dei will let anyone touch him is when he's unconscious. (He does get over this eventually. I still blame Lyra.)

15 Rejoice. Whee, more Boffo babble. In case the names are unfamiliar: (few people have actually read Boffo, which is for the better- if you search for it, it's still on the web, but I wouldn't recommend reading it at this point. It's old.) Jance is a member of the original cast; Tristan, Carly, and Jim are Dei's adopted children; Shateiel is a friend of Radueriel's and occasionally Dei's secretary; Jehudael is another angel who goes by Juhee or Dale in human form and works for Dei; Judecca is Radueriel's brother and goes by Jude; Len is Radueriel in human form. Dei, Tyler, and Opal are the old main characters, and Jubal is Opal's father. Whee. They like to cause havoc on Christmas Eve, since everyone is over their angst by the time Dei and Lyra get together for good. (Nobody really likes Lyra being there much, but they deal. She technically does belong, being a muse and all.)

16 Dreams. Wake of Wings is a story by one Asprosdrakos, and her crazy necromancer 3/8 dragon character Drake inspired this. My ability to find angst in the least-likely-to-angst characters never ceases to amaze me. *sigh*

17 Loser. Oh no, I need to write something! Good thing it doesn't matter how awful it is! Sasuke's such an idiot, and he's too easy to kill.

18 Burnout. It just so happened that manga chapters 243 and 244 were coming out around this time, and my love for Kakashi increased a thousand fold.

19 Beholder of the Eye. Least favorite title, one of my favorite fics. I was a little miffed when we didn't get to see any more of the aftermath of Obito's death in the manga; Kakashi's backstory fascinates me, and I really do think he spends much of his time in front of the cenotaph talking to the voices in his head. This may be partially the fault of A Murder of One, and absolutely amazing Kakashi/Iruka fic that is a beautiful piece of writing in its own right, nevermind the way the author captures the characters. I wasn't intentionally yoinking from it, even if Devo-sama's Kakashi is very similar to my idea of Kakashi. (It was the last panel in chapter 243 that did it, really- only Obito's eye was crying, and it broke my brain.)

I hate the entire Uchiha clan, and I doubt they'd be particularly forgiving of some upstart brat wandering around with one of their eyes when said brat couldn't even recover the body of the rightful owner of the eye. I still find all of the advanced bloodline clans fascinating, though, which is part of the reason I'm so taken with Kakashi's character- he's drawing on the power of two bloodlines, one of which isn't rightfully his to use. (I'm a horrible geek and have come up with a vague history of the Hatake clan because Kakashi's dad was feckin' awesome.)

This was just a consequences fic that allowed me to explore the way Kakashi thinks and the way the advanced bloodlines operate a little. I may do more crazy!Kakashi backstory stuff later that will involve his father or Yondaime (who is hawt).

20 Wedding Day. Random Boffo shite. The end of the year is a vitally important time in the story, so the fact that Dei and Lyra are getting married on New Year's is all symbolic and shite, and Jance gets to angst a little about the fact that his sister is dead. He also doesn't really like Lyra (not many of them do at the moment, actually) which is why he's going to theme the wedding around his sister. Did I mention that after the end of Boffo, Jance became a fashion designer? *sweatdrop* Yeah. He also doesn't get a love interest and still has expressed no particular desire for one. It's eerie, you know.

Notes to be finished in next entry.